sky blue_04

2006-03-25T21:54:00.000-08:00

bought 2 new shoes..yey! both converse..lolz..yey! at last i have chucks now..hehe!

im going to wear one of these tom. to mass..yey!

im going to wear one of these tom. to mass..yey!

2006-03-21T21:32:00.000-08:00

hey..

may bago akong crush..oo as in..haha! ang dmi na noh? pra akong nag-cocollect ng diff. kinds of candies/chocolates..waha! tps kpg nag-sawa sa iba nman..wehe! ang mean ko tlga! nwyz..kaya lng itong bgo kong crush e punk..oo! as in metal music ang gs2 nya..as in ngyn lng tlga ako nag-ka-crush sa isang punk e..so no idea ako kung pno yung mga music na gs2 nila and how they dress..but u knw what? i dnt care whatever clothes they wear and whatever music they like..bsta ang alam ko crush ko sya! waha! ibang klase e..alam nyo kung bkt? minsan ka lng maka-kita ng gnun na itsura..swear! yung spiky hair and super duper deep dimples..geez! dimples is really my weakness when guys have it..haha! tpos sobrang kinis ng face nya..as in! prang wlang ka-pimple pimple ang smooth..wehe! hndi sya photogenic..kc dun sa mga pics nya di sya gnun ka-cute..well.cute sya kya lng mas cute sya sa personal..oo! prehas kmi ng lunch period..hehe! kya nga ako nakaka-silay e..wehe! tps ang lapit ng table nila sa amin..waha! kya yun! feeling ko nga obvious na ako..kc ilang bses na ako nahuhuli nya tumitingin e tps nkita ko pa yung myspace nya tps ina-add ko kso di nya pa ina-add kc di pa sya sya nag-checheck..nung 15 sya last nag-check e..waha! alam na alam e..lolz..ako pa! so yah..so medyo sya ang kinababaliwan ko these past days..wehe!

c tam..ayun..knina..aba aba! nanalo sya sa science fair..ayos! galing! ina-announce pa name nya sa p.a. sna may bio nlng ako noh? hehe! pra nkita ko sya dun..wehe! nman! nwyz..knina..ngulat ako nung art class ko aba nkita ko c tam dun sa loob ng classroom..waha! kya lng eksaktong parating ako sya nman paalis..bwst! sna pla binilisan ko nag-lakad..ka-malas ko nga nman! kc hello yung class ko dulo to dulo tps 2nd floor ppuntang 3rd floor noh..wehe! haha! kailangan pa dw ng explanation e..wehe! sympre pra maintndihan ng ppl..wehe! ang gulo ko tlga! nu pa ba?

international night..ayun! um..dodownload ako ng song ngyn tps bbli rin ako ng candies by friday..ano ba msarap na candy? chocnut lng kc naiisip ko e..wehe! hahanap pa ako..wehe! cge yun lng muna for now..
thanks for the time..

!--cami--!

2006-03-19T06:13:00.000-08:00

hey.what's up ppl? haha! nwy..im back! i got 3 blogs now..waha! 2 xangas and 1 here..blogspot! nice! dmi ko ng ina-update..lolz..wehe!

alive blog again..!!

2005-12-26T10:46:00.000-08:00

weeeee..!! dang! i miss this blogspot soooooo much! for real..coz i ddnt knw this is still working..waha! i thought blogspot closed my account already but i guess they knw i'll be posting and vsit once more..waha!! so yah...it seems like years when i have last posted here..waha! i was reading my posts here and i was laughing coz of the events that happened to me..especially about my crushes..i remember what they did to me..and it's really worth having a blog..it's like a diary of the happenings in ur life..nice one!!since im using xanga now..i won't be able to open and post here..maybe once a while..waha!

up above in the sky..

2005-06-02T15:44:00.000-07:00

You opened this message because you think it's something you would want to know.. (supposedly tsismis or something new)
Pero what if it's not...But instead, it's about GOD, Faith? Babasahinmo ba to?Marahil... hindi.

You could have hit the BACK button already, orworse baka nga i-close mo to agad eh.Well?Pero kapag sa ibang bagay may panahontayo, noh?Kapag Siya na, "OOOPPSSS, SORRY GOD,IM KINDA BUSY!" -Busy with what?Chatting, malling, texting, PC Games, beautyrest, watching etcetera etcetera!Lagi namang ganoon di baga?Minsan sasabihin pa, sayang ang oras,mahal mag-internet.. or, it'll be nicer i read a moreINTERESTING topic...(Isn't this worth reading already?)Bakit ko pa pag-aaksayahan ng panahon toe nagsisimba naman ako tsaka nagdadasalnamanako minsan e! Pwede na yon!HINDI SAPAT YON!In most cases, nagsisimba ka nga, pero bago kamapilit ngparentz mo, pahirapan!Umm, u prefer going to church rather with yourfriends, i mean peers, than with family.. What isthat suppose to mean?Nagdadasal nga, pero halos paulit-ulit angsinasabi natin gabi-gabi!Saulo ang Ama Namin, Hail Mary.. Nasubukan mon bang i-translate un into ur own understanding ofit?Laging LORD, SANA ganito ganon.. Lordtulungan mo ko! Lord Favor...wag na langkayong tumanggi, ganyan di ako noon.LIFE IS NOT (JUST) ABOUT HAVING FUN! LIFE ISNOT ABOUT YOU OR ME! (It's also about.. HIM.)Ang buhay ay puno ng problema!At dapat tayong magpasalamat sa mgaproblema na yon, kasi kapag may problema langnaman tayo nakakalapit sa Diyos eh, tama ba?Nung Sunday, tahimik ka sa church..hindinakikipag-usap sa katabi... kumbaga well-behaved... pero itanong mo nga sa sa sarili mokung naintindihan mo yung sermon ng pari!HINDI MO ALAM NO? e syempre, tahimik kanga at nasa simbahan ka nga, PERO LUMILIPADANG UTAK MO!Kung ano-anong iniisip mo...anong kakaininko mamaya, saan ako pupunta, sino na kayangtumatawag at nagtetext sa fone ko?Sagutin kaya ako ng nililigawan ko at maramipang iba!Sayang yung chance na nakausap na sananatin ang Diyos.Simula ng ipanganak ka, nasabi mo bangnakapaglingkod ka na sa Diyos?Naiparamdam mo na ba sa Kanya na mahalmo Siya?Hindi pa cguro!Pero kapag sa mga GILFRIEND at BOYFRIENDgagawin natin lahat masabi langnatin kung gano natin sila kamahal.Nasa kanila lahat ng oras natin, but kapagkay Jesus, kahit 1 minute wala.Try nyo kayang bawasan miski 30 minutes langang panonood ng tv and makipag-usap kay God orbasahin ang Bible...Di ba kayo kapag hindi kayo pinansin ngtaong mahal nyo kahit lahat na ng bagay ginawanyo, MASASAKTAN KAYO?Ganon din ang DIYOS.Kasi binabalewala natin sya (halos) eh!Ipinanganak tayo para MAHALIN SIYA! WEARE BORN FOR GOD'S PLEASURE.WE ARE BORN FOR HIS PURPOSE. WEARE BORN NOT TO BE SERVED BUT TOSERVE.Siguro itatanong niyo: sino ka ba para sermonankami at para magsalita ng ganyan.Kristiyano ako at ginagawa ko lang ang purposeko.Dati, hindi ako religious,tamad magsimba atpaulit- ulit lang ang prayers ko, pero gusto kongmakabawi kay God.May panahon pa para magbago.Ang dami ko pa sanang gustong sabihin, kasokulang sa space.SALAMAT SA PAGBABASA NINYO NITO.GUSTO KO LANG MAG-SHARE SA INYO!PLEASE COPY & PASTE THIS ON YOURBULLETIN SUBJECT: ( anything na "nakatatawag pansin")In times of difficulties never say"God I have a big problem, but instead,"HEY PROBLEM, I HAVE A BIG GOD WITH ME."

> i got this from friendster..and it was a realization for me to think and stop for a while about God..amazing!! hope u can learn in juz reading this..merci..

"HINDI NA KITA MAHAL!"

2005-04-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

Naranasan mo na bang magsabi nyan???Kung OO ang sagot mo, pwes! alam mo ba na out of 10 people na nagsabinyan 5 ang nagsasabi ng totoo?? yes! meaning 5 ang sinungaling!Kc, minsan maraming dahilan kung bakit nasasabi yan...iSiPin MO ito.. Nasasabi ang linyang yan sa mga sitwasyon gaya ng..

NAGUGULUHAN ito ung mga taong nasa isang relasyon pgktapos eh may iba pang mahalnaiba.. kailangan nilang mapaniwala ang sarili na hindi na nila mahal ung isapara, mahalin naman ung isa pa.(HALIMBAWA: im sori may iba na kong mahal, HINDI NA KITA MAHAL)pero echos! ang totoo di ka naman syur kung sino pa talga sa kanilaangmatimbang... gets mo? (kung hindi kawawa ka naman..=)

MASAMA ANG LOOB eto naman ung mga taong katatapos lng hiwalayan o nagawan ng dimagandasa isang relasyon. (HALIMBAWA: bakit nya nagawa sakin toh! HINDI KO NA SYA MAHAL!) pero ay naku dala lng yan ng sama ng loob mo..sige hinga ngmalalim..tulog ng mahimbing.. paggising mo bukas naku...sya na namanangnaalala mo..(miz mo noh? =)

BASTED as in ayaw nya daw sayo.. PARE OKEI KA LNG? (SAGOT: okei lng akopre,wala na un hindi ko na rin sya mahal) uyyy pa-macho epek.. SISTER OKEI KA LNG? (SAGOT: yuh im okei, as in hindikona sya mahal noh?!) ows? go gurl!

LIHIM NA PAG-IBIG eto naman ung mga taong ayaw ipaalam sa kanilang minamahal ang toto!o,para lang mapagtakpan ang nararamdaman nila, lalo na't binubuking nasila.. (HALIMBAWA: Hindi ko sya mahal ah, friend lng ang turing ko sakanya.) ay naku! yan din sinabi ni jolina kay marvin!

PA-I WILL SURVIVE epek eto ang mga taong gusto ng kumawala sa hawla ng alala ng taongminamahal..(HALIMBAWA: pagod na ko..from now on, kakalimutan ko nasya,hindi ko na sya mahal! smart na ko ngayon, i will survive!) ....hehe sino ka? si kris aquino??

TAAS NG PRIDE eto ung mga taong di nila maamin sa sarili nila na mahal nila angisangperson kc nga malayo sa standard nila ung gurl/guy or lets say mayibangdahilan..pero nainlab sila. (HALIMBAWA: yun? h! indi ko sya mahalnoh.ako pa, kilala nyo ko) sabay Naka cross ang mga fingers ng kanilanghands and feet!

TAKOT eto ung mga taong dahil ilang beses na nasaktan sa larangan ng pagibig,eh ayaw ng magmahal kahit na mahal naman talga nila ang isang taongnagmamahal sa kanila..(HALIMBAWA: ayaw ko ng masaktan ulit...hindikitamahal.) ..o tapos? hehe

PAGHIHIGANTI eto naman ung mga taong binabalikan matapos ng hiwalayan...syempresobra nga naman sila nasaktan kaya sasabihan nya ng "MASYADO AKONG NASAKTAN SA MGA NANGYARI, HIND NA KITA MAHAL" ...o loko bagay sayo! maraming dahilan, maraming paraan para sabihin natin ito .. perosana,sa susunod na sabihin mo sa kanyang hindi mo na sya mahal ... eh ungtotoo na. Yung kaya mo na, yung sigurado ka, at un talga angnararamdaman mo.. mahirap na.. Paano kung mawala pa sya?... Paanokungmahal ka pa talaga nya?.. Paano na kung mahal ka nya... Paano Kungmahal ka rin nya at mahal mo pa rin sya. At sa ibang taong makakaranasnamanneto.. pag sinabihan ka ng HINDI NA KITA MAHAL! / HINDI KITA MAHAL!chinup! and say... STYLE MO BULOK! LIARS GO TO HELL!!

random stuffs

2005-04-24T13:46:00.000-07:00

wala ng kwenta itong blogspot ko..hahahaha! nkakatamad na kasi i-update e..wala lang..alam niyo naman ako si tamad..nung nag-sabog si Lord ng katamaran gising na gising ako kaya ako ganito ngayon...ayan tuloy effect sa akin..i dnt knw what's wrong with me..um next week is one of the best weeks that i will have..u knw why? coz i've got 2 days only in school. coz on wed and thurs i dnt have classes coz of the junior pplwho will take test..the fri we will have fieldtrip on a zoo...WHICH MEANS I CAN SEE A MONKEY!! hahahahaha.......joke lang!! ah basta may pinaparating ako dun na may connection sa tao...labo ko!! yung mga ibng ppl getz nila pero yung oba hndi sori nlng kyo...kulit ko!! halatang wala na ako masabi..sori!! pati mga ibng tao ginugulo ko..hehehehe!! MISS ko na ang barx..si shall, lee, cat, meca, yel...SAN NA KAYO?? I WANT U GUYZ TO BE HERE WITH ME AS IN NOW!!!!!!! but what can i do??? NOTHING!!! right???

2005-04-19T15:30:00.000-07:00

dead na talaga itong blogspot ko..hahaha! hindi na ako nag-uupadate e..bulok na ito..hehe! kulit ko..um, kahapon todo sakit ng ulo dahil tumakbo ako ng 1 mile which is 4 laps ng walan hinto so hindi ako naka-hinga..tindi..inatake tuloy ako ng asthma..wala na! kaya yun..oki na naman e..tapos na e..dami pa ko gawa e..hws pa..so next time na ulit..

**do my friendtest..thanks!! go to prettycam.friendtest.com salamat! love u all...

kung ano na..

2005-04-14T17:05:00.000-07:00

hello..andito ulit ako..nagbabali ang may-ari nito..hahaha!! well, oki naman life ko dito..pero sad pa rin kasi wala ppl na mahal ko..u knw hu u r..oki?? love yah all!! miss u also..gwapo pa rin ni Tom kahit anong gawin mo e..hehehe! pati na rin si Tommy yung guy na classmate ko sa gym..haha! nahuhuli nga niya ako na naka-tigin sa kanya e..malas ko talaga!! hayaan mo siya..wala naman ako paki e!! hehe!! dami ko talaga crush..swear!! kakaiba talaga ako..iba na buhay ko e..miss ko na rin si Love ko..wala lang..random na lang ito ha?? kung ano na pumasok sa utak ko yun na..hahaha!! hilig ko diyan..wala na ako masabi..bsta masaya ako this past few days..sana naman hndi ako maging malungkot sa mga sususnod na days..wag naman Lord.....I love u Lord..mahal talaga kita!! ur r the best!! yan lang muna..update nlng ko sa susunod..paalam muna sa ngayon! busy buhay ko e..

nice weather

2005-04-05T14:55:00.000-07:00

hahaha..saya! gusto ko yung weather ngayon kasi mainit..i mean na-fefeel mo yung heat ng sun para kang nasa pilipinas pero iba pa rin e...ibang iba..especially the people..bakit ako biglang nag-english..gulo ko talaga! thank u Lord sa magandang panahon ngayin..sobra! love u Lord..the best ka!!

um, badtrip ako kagabi..e kasi namin ang gulo gulo ng buhay ng mga relatives ko puro away..parang ako tama na! suko na ako sa inyo...grabe kasi..gusto ko ng umuwi kina mama..ang tagal pa kasi ng summer e..kainis! kaya nga gusto ko na matapos ang school e para naka-mama na ako kasi miss ko na pamilya ko..nangungulila na ako sa kanila kahit evry weekends andun ako iba pa rin ung everday noh?? diba? tama ba ako?? yel...tulong!! saan ka na??? gusto ko andito ka sa tabi ko dami ko kwento sayo..at problema na kailangan kita..ikaw lang may alam nito e...i mean ikaw lang makakapag-solve nito,,,nyek connection!!ah basta..uwi na ako..

pero fine unting tiis na lang summer na...nakita ko kanina sa Tom pamatay pa rin..namiss ko na siya..ewan ano ba itong mga pinagsasabi ko dito..uy ppl comment naman kayo..halatang wlang nag-babasa dito e..kawawa naman ako..hehe! sa xanga lang kasi ako may update at ppl yung mga nag-cocomment e..yun lang muna!!

whatever

2005-04-03T14:12:00.000-07:00

tagalog na nga lang itong blog na ito..wala lang..trip ko lang..kasi yung xanga..pure english na!! ito tagalog na lang ulit..wala lang..boring ng buhay ko!! hehe! umattend ako ng yfc kahapon..masaya as usual..hehe! later na yung update hehe..bye!!

SIYA NA..

2005-04-01T18:16:00.000-08:00

MM

mahal kita!

hahaha....

bakit may sabay na tawa?

kahit anong gawin mo ikaw pa rin.

2005-03-31T19:40:00.000-08:00

yesterday i finally ate the food that im craving for..the corn with mayonnaise and cheese. i didn't like it that much but still it's corn so i ate it!

carmela, brother of carmela,my parents and i went to dempster just for walking because of boredom. the stores that we went were filipino and old navy. the travelled time is long it's like 1 and a half hours before we arrived there. we rode 2 bus and 2 trains.

in the old navy..i saw new kind of clothes..for spring weather!i want to buy shorts and new shirt for my new outfit! again i was disappointed. no money to buy that kind of things..which is not really needed. i just wanted because it looks nice. i also want to buy skirt but my mom said how can i wear it if the weather is like this..compared it to the weather in the philippines..you can wear skirt anytime you want. i ended up buying a pair of sandals. at least i bought something even though i didn't have a new skirt! well, im happy for having it!

*i just want to thank God for the things that I have and I should learn how to be satisfied..right people?!!?!?!??*

spring break..i am here!

2005-03-24T16:06:00.000-08:00

as my title said.."spring break.. i am here!" i am really looking forward in this 10 day vacation..its a break for me to stop thinking about studies..and other stuffs that has a connection with school! its time to rest, relax, sleep all day, watch tv, internet..and other things that i usually do when i have free time..

i have a new crush..yesterday, the guy that i am saying to you..the one who talked to me and asked and me in caf..i found out this day that he is in gymnastics because he performed a while ago in the gym for our assembly..and he was great..! i mean it! maybe that is one reason why i have a crush on that guy again..i don't know why i kept finding Green in the gym but i can't see him..anyway, i don't care!! Checkered was supposedly be picked as one of the teachers that will be thrown a pie on their face..but luckily..he was able to survived because there were not a lot of people who voted for him..that's why he is safe! i want to see him have pie or cream on his clothes and face..that's so hilarious if that happens!

anything goes

2005-03-20T18:43:00.000-08:00

actually, i don't have the mood in updating this..you know why? BECAUSE I AM DROWSY..its only 6:43 but that's what i feel. this morning, i woke up around 9 but that's not early right? another thing is i have xanga already.. i like xanga because my background is the one and only my love..hehe! my husband! christian bautista..he is really handsome and cute! but the only problem in xanga is i don't know how to change the font color..because the text there is dull and its plain but still i have to fix it!

i was pissed off and annoyed by the person next to me in the church awhile ago..its palm sunday today..that's why we have the green leaf.. i don't know what do you call it..in tagalog its "palaspas" then this girl or should i say a woman or a mother has the green leaf and while the priest is talikng she is concentrating on that green leaf; she was doing something else with that leaf..in short she is playing..and she is not listening.. i wanted to say to her "can you please stop?" i didn't do that of course maybe that mother will get mad at me and say "please mind your own business" so i just pretended that i am not annoyed.. i didn't mind her! also the children were noisy..some are crying, some are shouting. so i can't concentrate and understand what the priest said..so next time what i will do is sit at the very front of the church so there is less distraction!

going back xanga..when i showed my xanga to my cousin..she said she wanted to do that also. the background thing and she asked me to teach her how..when i was the one doing her background the wallpaper is not appearing on her xanga. we tried it like for 3 times but it won't work. i am sad because i also wanted her to have it..but there will come a time..until now she doesn't have it..

hit by a ball

2005-03-17T17:29:00.000-08:00

in gym class a.k.a p.e. i was hit by a basketball ball..hehe! its not that..the one who accidentally hit me became my crush now! hehe! even before i find him cute but i don't really like him and he is just an ordinary person for me before..now, its different! its all because of that ball..i was so stupid because he said to me that i should watch out because the ball is coming towards me but i didn't hear him..so when i turned to him the ball went directly in my head. but he said sorry..and he asked me if i am alright! i just said yes..instead of pretending that im really hurt by the fact that i want him to say and really mean sorry! his name is Tommy..the same name as my first crush in niles west..remember Green? he is my first crush in niles west..almost all my crush in niles west have the name Tom..i don't know why..its just that happen!

oh by the way, Tommy is in my group in basketball..okay i mean he is in my team and he is such a good player! his smile is super deadly and his cheeks are always red..as if someone slapped him on the face..hehe!

MM added me in his myspace account! i am just happy..

thank God for this day!

2005-03-16T16:07:00.001-08:00

I LOVE THE WEATHER TODAY! BECAUSE THE SUN IS OUT AND ITS NOT THAT COLD. so i am thanking our dear Lord for the wonderful day that He always gave us even if it is raining, snowing or a storm. i am thankful that i am alive..

I LOVE YOU LORD! YOU ARE MY LIFE!

thank God for this day!

2005-03-16T16:07:00.000-08:00

MM i love you!

2005-03-14T16:36:00.000-08:00

the YFC meeting was so fun snd awesome..well because first of all the topic is about our dear Lord! secondly, the reason is because there's my crush! MM..hehe! sorry Lord but don't worry You will always be my first priority! anyway, so at around 11:45 a.m. ate alane picked us up at the Troy (house) and i really didn't have an idea where we are going..all i know is at a house of one of the YFC people and its in Glenview. then we went to Irving place i don't know where is it exactly located. then when we arrived at the Irving place the first person that i saw was MM and he was riding on his BMW car! hehe! his rich right? then ate alane said that we will ride with MM. i was like oh my gosh! is this really happening? this is only on my mind! when i was closing the door of the car of ate alane my legs are trembling! im feeling weak that time. then my cousin and i went inside his car and i thought his car was friendly. i mean by friendly is you are comfortable but im not!! because his car has little space for your feet. but its fine and i am happy because that is his car and i don't care as long as he is there. as we entered his car he asked us if how are we and we answered as normal..fine and good..oh by the way, ate alane is a cousin of MM. we directly went to the Glenview place its kinda far but i didn't feel the journey because i was concentrating on MM. his driving is fast and he is following the traffic rules. HE IS SO CUTE!

as we arrived at the Glenview place he parked the car and went inside the house. so the meeting began..before i forget when he was driving i noticed that he have a rosary in the mirror thing he hanged it there and he was touching the crossand he kissed it. isn't he a very religious person? that is one thing that i was amazed on him and he is my idol when it comes to that part! we had a game again and we played that when we had the camp. this is the second time that MM and i were out in this game,,and its either im the first one who will be out or its him that will be out first then me. i don't know why is it like that! then, alot of times we eye-contacted each other. and im so "kilig".

the meeting ended and the plan is they will go to bowling in Dempster..my cousin and i didn't have any money..even 1 cent..then ate sherr said she will pay for us..im not used to that because its really not in my vocabulary and attitude in borrowing money from somone else. so we went there and the people there said there is no vacancy for bowling and its 10:15 that they will have no people in bowling..so we decided that we will just go to portillo's restuarant and stay there for a while.

at the restuarant....
MM was sitted right in front of me..i can't eat very well because he was there..plus he is my crush! i am very conscious when it comes to that. then i watched him eat.. he eats too much! we stayed there for about 1 and a half hour and our tables was long..like 10 tables...like in last supper..more than that! its a huge table because we are many and MM was joking that what if you have many children your table is like that and you can't even understand and talk to each other. its very hilarious when he was saying that! they were planning to got UIC for the camp...just visit..and UIC is a college school and that is where he goes to school.

* did i mention that he can't understand tagalog? well,,no he can't..i don't know with him but he is a filipino..i thought all the while he can understand it..so i can't talk to tagalog when he is there..

back to his car..so we decided to leave the restuarant and go to UIC..but then i was wrong..i thought we are going to UIC but instead me and my cousin were brought home. and at that moment i don't want to go home i still want to be with him. but it didn't happen...i was disappointed!! on the way home MM was questioning me all the time..like about my parents, brother, where do we live..do we have a curfew..stuff like that! then he also asked us if we know how to do the "tinikling" and he is good at it and he can do it with blindfold. my cousin was not answering back MM because my cousin wants me to answer all MM's questions..but its fine!

i forgot something else..at the Glenview place where we had the meeting..we had this forum and people asked any kind of questions..then MM asked a question..his question was somewhat like this..(how can you talk to the other members of the YFC people if you don't have anything in common?) something like that..when i heard that i said to myself is that me that MM is talking about..?? because me and my cousin are always talking to each other in tagalog. he can't understand it that's why..then the person who's giving advice or who answered that said to him just talk to them.. all the new members are already close to MM except for me and my cousin..got it? so when we rode on his car he asked me a lot of questions..maybe that's the start..well, that's nice right?

okay, i'll end this now.. thanks for the people who read this post..though not everyone can relate! thanks anyway!

bloody hell

2005-03-08T20:17:00.000-08:00

let's talk about girly thing today! about the period of the girl! anyway, i was so pissed off because my belly button really hurts! i am having an experienced called dysminorrhea [whatever the spelling] that kind of pain when i don't have it yet, then when i have, and after i have. its the whole week of having..that's why i can't concentrate on the stuffs that im doing!

ewww!! yuck!! plus it stinks and its also work! because you change napkin every now and then and after that you wrap it! but there's nothing you can do! you are born to be a girl and no matter what you still have menstruation. whether you like it or not! that is God's gift to you! Blood!! He also lose lots of blood when He was nailed on the cross just to save us from our sins. wait, where am i? the topic is going far away again!

LESSON FOR TODAY: It's great to be a woman or a girl but having menstruation is bloody but let us be thankful for that!

weird dream & don't cut class!

2005-03-07T17:23:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i dreamed of my friends in the philippines, YFC people and friends here in united states.

we went to a house. idon't know whose house is it all i know is it is dark and it is in the basement. and there is a table with a phone near the door! at first i experienced fun and extreme happiness and also somewhat juvenile person but then after a while i realized that we are doing is wrong! this is really what happened. we are cutting classes. when i said to them that we should go back to our class because someone might cause us and we will get a consequence for what we have done. that's what i said to them and also to my bestestfriend yel! when we are about to leave, the phone rang and i had a vibration and feeling that it is either one of our parents telling us where did we go and why we are not in school. we didn't mind the phone ringing so we quietly opened the door to get out but all of a sudden a person or an adult came in front of us...then we are all stunned! right after that, my alarm clock rang................ and i know its 5:30 in the morning and i should go to school and dress up and not cut class!!!

YFC camp crush

2005-02-28T13:45:00.000-08:00

okay,, let's see..my cousin and I joined the YFC for the people who don't know what YFC means it means Youth For Christ! im becoming closer to God..that's really good right? anyway, as my title said above..yup, camp crush..i don't want to mention his name..but he is really cute! and this guy is the only person that i knew in my life that is so devoted to God and in which i admire to him.about the camp we didn't have enough sleep that's why i can't concentrate and even in school mmy eyes are so heavy and in fact i slept or should i say nap during my first subject because the lights are off and we are watching movie that is so boring...

this experience is one of a kind..i can't tell you guys the whole thing and the detailed stuffs because if i did we will not stop..i promise you..

update for the whole day

2005-02-24T15:48:00.000-08:00

today when i arrived at home i wasn't feeling good i don't know why. i just felt dizzy and i want to vomit but after a few hours i was okay again. maybe all i need is rest. a lot of people was sick these past few days and weeks. even my mom she had colds and slight fever. sometimes i think i am the one who should have fever or some illness not my loved ones because i don't want seeing them having a hard time.

i have friends in ESL (english second language) that praised my crush john prats. then, there is this guy who said to me "i don't like this guy" he was pointing to john prats because its in my binder then i just said to him "am i asking your opinion?" then he was in silent. maybe he was embarrassed. then another friend of mine said to the guy she said that john prats is my boyfriend. perhaps, i will be the happiest person in the whole wide world if that happens.

i wasn't able to do the eye-contact thing to Grey because he and his friend walked fast. then Checkered was funny awhile ago. our topic was bacteria and if you sneeze you will spread bacteria right? then, all of a sudden Checkered sneezed. then my classmate said to him he was spreading bacteria then he said that he was spreading good bacteria..hehe! that was bogus!

tomorrow my cousin and i will go to a camping. its youth for Christ something like that! this will be my first time doing that kind of activity. its cool right? im now excited! i will find cute and handsome guys..hehe! that's one of my goals..im so mean! whatever! i hope this camping will be fun!

Why They Are Friends

2005-02-20T14:22:00.000-08:00

because..........they smile
because..........they understand just by looking into your eyes
because..........they finish your sentences and know what you like
because..........they know you better than you know yourself
because..........with them you aren't afraid to be yourself
because..........you can say something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them
because..........everything you do together becomes a memory
because..........you don't need to do something special to have fun..fun just happens
because..........you don't need to explain anything..they just know
because..........they tell you the truth, no matter how much you'd rather not hear it
because..........they would do anything for you and get you out of trouble
because..........they make you laugh harder than anyone
because..........they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you
because..........you can trust them
because..........they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they may seem
because..........they dry your tears
because..........you are good enough when you are with them
because..........they love you for who you really are

by: Kristy Glassenfrom the book: Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul

***reflection don't you realize that you guys have friends who are always there for you from thick to thin? well, if not..start it now..without them you cannot have a nice personality right now.for me, my friends are my third important people..first is God then family then them. you guys are so lucky that you have friends that is very supportive to you and you are not far away with each other. how about me? put your position in my place..its really tough! im here in chicago and the only time that i can talk to them is weekends which is not every weekends..sometimes, once a month. here to philippnes, expenisve! but i have no choice..im so fricking pissed! from the movie, white chicks. i just love that line..so don't waste your time as long as its early love your friends and show them that you care about them.

hopelessness & desperation

2005-02-15T18:58:00.000-08:00

i found new information from my two recent crush. i am just happy! i was listening to their conversation and that was it! boom!!

i am so desperate in joining the golf club. really!! but my problem is i don't have any friend or friends that is joining golf club. but i want to..aside from having rapper boy there i also want to learn that kind of sport. what will i do now? perhaps, i will be all alone if i really want! right? i'll do anything just to join. maybe rapper boy will be my friend! hehe! that was a big joke and is a dream which im longing and dying to wait for. he is handsome and cute! oh never mind!

about Checkered. he is still and forever will be cute! it will never change! he asked me awhile ago.. "Rose and Sam are you working together?" what i did was nod. just that! he was looking at me and even if he is not smiling ! he is still cute!

valentines day special

2005-02-14T01:17:00.000-08:00

ALWAYS

On Valentines Day there is no one I’d rather be with than you.
Your smile lights my eyes with passion, just being around you sends my heart floating to heaven.
My heart beats wildly, for when I look into the clouds I see your face, your lips upon mine are the sweetest taste.
Your arms holding me tight, we embrace together, On Valentines Day there is no one I’d rather be with, now, and the rest of forever.

no valentine date

2005-02-13T15:04:00.000-08:00

how sad! ='( i don't have a valentine date but still in the other part im still happy! also im jealous of the people who have a date. nothing i just want to say that! im happy because i talked to my bestestfriend yesterday after 1 month i think! i just miss her. she has so many stories to tell and after we talked its as if i shouted my throat hurts! again all we did was laugh..then i asked her who will be her prom date and she said nyoy..hehe! its a big big joke! i also talked to my buddy..but i didn't have a long talked to her sorry buddy!! next time again! and i haven't talked to love ko..maybe next week..also shalli..next week!! okay?? i think this is enough for now.

golf here i come..

2005-02-10T19:30:00.000-08:00

this will be on tagalog language because i can feel more the excitement to tell it! hehe! let's start now! pumunta kami sa school ko sa niles west. kasama ko ang aking pinsan..si carla! hehe! papasok siya sa niles west din next year! magiging 1st year siya! so yun! parents and tita ko rin pala kasama sympre! so yun nga..signing-up kasi ng clubs para sa kanila. kami dapat pupunta ng niles north ang pag-uusapan naman dun pang-college..so nag-decide kami mag-stay na lang kami sa niles west nga. so umupo kami dun sa may main office..tapos itong si rapper boy which his real name is brian..and i don't want to call him brian i want rapper boy..that's more cool. yun nga si rapper boy grabe ang gwapo! wala lang..naka-upo nga kami kasama ko parents ko inaantay namin yung pinsan ko tapos biglang dumaan si rapper boy sa harapan namin e kausap ko nga si mama tapos pinapagalitan pa ako basta ganun..tapos tumingin siya sa akin kasi parang na-ilang siya kasi tagalog ang pagsalita namin kaya hindi niya maintindihan. may hinahanap siya e mga friends niya siguro nawawala yung mga kasama niya..tapos bumalik na naman siya kasi wala dun yung hinahanap niya tapos ako naman titig lang hanggangg sa hindi ko na siya makita. so lumabas na yung pinsan ko galing auditorium e hindi pa pala siya naka-sign up..so ako hinila nitong pinsan kong magaling! nag-sign up siya sa volleyball, chinese club..basta yun! take note mahilig siya sa mga tsinito..tapos tinuro ko sa kanya si rapper boy e tsinito yun! tapos sabi ko yung may hawak ng golf na sign pag-tingin niya kinilig ang gwapo daw!! sabi ko mang-aagaw siya!! kaasar!! ako una kay rapper boy e..sabi ko mag-hanap na lang siya ng ibang tsnito dami naman diyan e..hehe! basta badtrip!! tapos ngayon nag-decide ako na sasali talaga ako ng golf club seryoso talag ako..hindi lang naman dahil sa kanya e gusto rin naman talaga matuto ng golf e ever since. kaya yun! pero sana maging close kami! sabi ng pinsan ko sasali rin siya sa glof tapos pustuhan kung sino sa amin ang magiging close kaagad..ewan! basta!! hayaan mo siya sa buhay niya!! basta sasali ako walang kokontra!! okay?? ayun lang!! sorry for the people who didn't understand this..i mean because of the language that i used.. sorry!! this is only for filipino people! anyway, thanks so much for reading this!!

reasons

2005-02-09T19:50:00.000-08:00

12 reasons why i need to go back to the Philippines

1. hindi ko kasi makita ang crush ko
2. mahal ang college dito.
3. hindi magulo at maingay dito! lahat tahimik..walang kwenta ang mga tao.
4. walang familiar na tao..i mean pagdating mo dito wala kang kilala.
5. late ka pag-gragraduate. diyan 17 graduate ka na or 16 ng highschool.
6. kahit mahirap buhay, kahit wala ng pagkain, masaya pa rin. dito naman dami ka nga pagkain at pera pero hindi ka naman masaya..no one is happy!!
7. sobrang lamig..susuko ka.
8. halos wala ka ng mapanood sa t.v. wala ka ring mapakinggan sa radyo..katulad ng filipino shows and radio stations.
9. the best pa rin ang pagkain diyan.
10. mahirap transportation, halos walang bus..always cars.
11. para makita ang buong barx and relatives from the mother side.
12. malungkot ang pasko at new year dito

12 reasons why i need to stay

1. madali makakuha ng job.
2. madali ang pag-aaral! makaka-kuha kaagad ng A sa grades at sa bawat subjects.
3. wala masyadong projects especially the heavy and hard ones, yung tipong pipigain ang utak mo kahit wala ng lumalabas.
4. maganda school.. i mean yung private diyan public lang yun dito. behind talaga diyan. pero iba pa rin diyan! i love my country.
5. wala kang babayaran sa school libre talaga.
6. dami pagkain. mura na, tipid pa.
7. laki ng salary mo, 8 dollars per hour.
8. mahal ang pamasahe pabalik..wala pang enough money.
9. may snow! ganda kapag tinitignan mo..unique! wala diyan nito.
10. you can buy whatever you want and own them na hindi mo magawa gawa diyan kasi mahirap ang buhay.
11. daming gwapo at cute dito hindi lang amerikano pati na rin ang mga tao na galing sa ibang bansa..tsinito! hehe!
12. may library na libre ang internet mo. astig noh?

update

2005-02-07T13:35:00.000-08:00

well, i don't know what to say! i finished my letter to julie, yel, and love ko.. for the valentines day but i haven't mailed it yet. anyway, it doesn't matter! i was browsing some blogs and i noticed that my blog is crap and boring! and the stuffs that im posting is not worth to read. they have so many interesting posts and stories to tell..but me, in my blog here..nothing is unique!!

now, i know the name of the rapper boy that im telling to you..his name is brian yoo. so cute! putik! pamatay! hehe! all of a sudden there are filipino words..sorry! i just can't help it. my life is not thatgood today..nothing happened to me except only for Checkered. that's all! everyday, there is something interesting and exciting that is happening to me but only on Checkered like talking to me and helping me that kind of stuffs..for example if i didn't know something on our activity i always ask him questions on what to do..and his smile is really awesome!!

haunted...

2005-02-05T10:48:00.000-08:00

im haunted and that makes me sick
because of the feelings i keep
here in my heart, mind and soul
please help me to decide what i really know...

haunted by a face of a man
who deeply hurted my feelings
even though he didn't learn how to love me
i still have my feelings for him...

leave me alone, your face hurts me
knowing that until now you still ignore me
i already accepted that you cannot love me back
but why those memories coming back?

i don't wanna be haunted again
in my dreams you are still there
when i wake up, you are the first thing in my mind
and when i do, that makes me cry.

i know i can't live happy without you,
but hunting me more makes more damage too,
please, i beg you, leave me alone
that's all i need for me to grow... ='(

by: Carmela Nipas
-my cousin

unlikely snow

2005-01-30T15:24:00.000-08:00

at first when i came here in America and i saw snow i was so happy and amused and excited to touch and see it. REAL SNOW!! before, i really like snow and now my views changed. snow is not good. i don't like it. i loathe it! its very slippery and i don't like walking in snow. then the snow melts like for 1 month or more than that. that is not cool..but there is one thing that i like in snow..it is the shoveling part! even though its a hard job you will enjoy it! there is also a method in shoveling. you can also be paid just for shoveling like in your neighbor..instead of the snow people they have truck then you will pay them 30 bucks that's so much! too expensive..might as well give it to me instead right?!?? that's so hilarious! nope actually it is not! its boring..never mind what i said..

unknown feelings

2005-01-29T17:33:00.000-08:00

let me see! its been a long time since i haven't updated this. my real reason is because i don't have good enough to post something here..now i have now..

about Checkered nothing new happened..oh yeah wait..last week he talked to me because when i was entering our class room he was there standing in front of the door as usual. he saw me brushing my hair because before bio was math before math was p.e. and my p.e. is swimming. he asked me if was swimming fun and i said no..i will not tell the whole detail..

i have a classmate in ESL and to tell you the truth he is not cute and handsome..he is just a normal person..ordinary! but every time that he talks to me there is something that i can't explain. during our literature class he is sitted in front of me while on grammar class he is sitted on the left side of me..i don't know what's wrong with me..im really confused..he is such a funny person and most of the time the teacher always make him settle down because he is a naughty and wild guy..but he can control himself and he knows when to behave. then last friday, ihe forgot his pen in my table..i know that is his pen because his pen fell down and i didn't pick it up i just don't want to. i kept his pen and i will give it back to him on monday..is that right?? should i give it back to him or not?? but he is not yet my real crush..i mean i don't have deep and huge crush on him..i just like him as the funny guy during ESL. maybe that will go on..we don't know..

just wait for it...

i have a new crush not that crush..he is cute..that's it! he looks like an artist in the philippines..he is so cute..he is my busmate only when going home.

next crush..i think he is a chinese.he is the one who rap before and he is cute that's why he became my crush...

about my chatmate thanks so much..

happy birthday to moi

2005-01-28T17:51:00.000-08:00

moi happy birthday!!

sorry kung hindi ako nakakapag-reply sayo sa mga texts mo sa akin pati na rin sa ate mo pero ito na lang tandaan niyo hindi ako busy at hindi ko kayo nakaka-limutan! mahal na mahal ko kayo lahat na ang buong pamilya niyo..kayo pa!!

wala ako gift sa iyo e sorry ito na lang dedicated naman sayo ito e..solong solo mo nga e..basta pag-butihin ang pag-aaral okay? top pa rin ha?? thanks sa lahat lahat napaka-baet mo talaga sa akin..i mean you care for me as one of the your older sister..and i feel that! thanks again! just always rememeber take care of yourself and i will always be here for you..alright?? love yah..and miss you so much!

whatever it is

2005-01-23T15:12:00.000-08:00

this is the only time that i have updated my blog because i don't have time. im so busy this past few days. i have tons of things to do. i have this book and im reading it and i should finish it by friday. i don't want to read it im so lazy but i have no choice but to read it.

last sunday i chatted. my first time in my entire life because i thought that chatting is stupid and a waste of time..but no if you chatted with the right person then that's it its worth it! right? you'll find something more than that. then we started chatting around 8 or 9 pm then we ended at 12 midnight. its very long..but i had so much fun and i didn't regret it! im just happy that day and sorry for that person because as you know i can't chat with you always..you know my position! thanks for understanding me!!

movie marathon

2005-01-16T17:03:00.000-08:00

last friday, i watched 6 movies..its a movie marathon! im all by myself watching because everyone in the house was not around.first movie that i watched is white chicks which my Love ko watched it also with her friends. here, its rated R..so i watched it but then i realized that its not so rude at all. actually its a nice an good film and i enjoyed it. second movie is the elf which i remember Green because he said that he watched that for almost 10 times everytime its on on cable he will always watch it. he said that movie is such a funny one. third movie is shallow hal..i watched it already before its great because that guy didn't care if the girl is fat or whatever. he looks at the inside of the person. fourth movie is the forces of nature which i didn't like the ending i want sandra bullock and ben affleck will be the one who will be couples but its not! fifth movie is the along came polly and im also disappointed by the ending. i thought it will be ben stiller and jeniffer aniston..but its a great movie also. lastly this was around 10:00pm and my eyes were geting to fall down, the movie is terminal.i liked this movie because this guy survived in the airport and his flight was delayed because of the bombings and wars on his coutry. he stayed there for a long time..nice one right??

so have you ever tried doing also that? watching all day..??

mysterious dream about Green

2005-01-15T18:56:00.000-08:00

i dreamed of Green and the place is on bed. oops!! i know all of you guys thinking..there's something happened right?? well, you are all wrong. it just so happened that it is on bed then there is this my cousin laying down then next to her is Green and then next to Green is his friend. i was really mad at my cousin that time because im not beside Green. in fact i don't have any place to sleep. our bed is only for three people..if i remember right i wasn't sleeping im just staring to Green at im in the end of the bed and im sitting there..observing how he sleeps!!

this is stupid!! damn dream..!!

done with the finals

2005-01-13T17:00:00.000-08:00

im so happy the finals were over. hehe! now is the time for me to rest and relax my mind in thinking my homeworks and other stuffs! thank you Lord! anyway, i have a 4 weekend vacation that is with the weekend saturday and sunday. i don't have classes tomorrow and on monday.. isn't that great?

our math exam awhile ago was so easy..im not being too proud..okay? because unlike in the philippines if there's the exam and its math you can't use calculator..here you can use it and also our topic is like in elementary..addition, subtraction, division, multiplication and fractions..im not used to that..because there im used to have a math that is so hard and you don't know how to solve that kind of problem. that's stupid! one thing that i just don't like it because your mind will not work anymore you will depend on your calculator..that is one more that im disagreeing. i noticed that in myself..

i have a dream about Green last night but i'll do it sometime..

>>>>------ miss you so much & i love you bestestfriend yel

don't know

2005-01-08T19:52:00.000-08:00

again, my mind is not working! what i mean is the lessons that im studying it doesn't stay on my mind! i can't memorize! um, maybe you are wondering why am i studying! because its ou finals on tuesday and im not yet prepared.

i miss my ever dearest bestestfriend yel! i miss those times when i slept in their house and our bonding stuffs especially in malls! i really miss that! nothing i just want to say something!

my closest friend marie said to me that sportsfest is coming and that's what i also miss in school.

i won in the scrabble game a while ago im the first place! hehe! well, that's life! the other opponents were my cousins and one is my aunt. all i have with me is all consonant letters no vowels but still i won!

now, im in the state of desperation. i want to go home in my country not here! i want to see everyone my friends and relatives! but id on't know what to do!

why am i happy? you'll find out!

2005-01-04T16:34:00.000-08:00

my last post was Christmas and I did it in tagalog because its a special event. also I write in tagalog if its on my mood it really depends! now I'm going back to my english its just an ordinary day.

all of a sudden when I arrived from school I was so frazzled. i did all my homeworks and even the homeworks were really hard I'm still happy. all the pressure is on my mind but im still happy! i kept thinking about my project which is due on thursday and I haven't done anything yet! that's what you called cramming. I can't do a term paper in just 2 days. for me, I do it at least a week before but I'm trying and i have no choice but to do it!

you know why im happy? because its the 4th of the month. its 7th months that passed when me and Love ko went to the mall and watched a movie. which I will never forget in my entire life.

2nd thing that's why I'm happy is because of Checkered.

regalo ni kuy sa akin

2004-12-25T20:10:00.000-08:00

game! merry christmas to all of you! oops mali pala happy holidays. kasi sa amin dito sa school at dito sa states happy holidays ang sinasabi kasi hindi lahat ng tao catholic right? kaya yun! hindi ako naka-tawag sa mga friends ko sa pilipinas relatives ko lang ang naka-usap ko kasi tinawagan ng aking mom! saya naman! excited silang lahat e..basta masaya na malungkot..malunngkot kasi wala ako sa pilipinas para i-celebrate ang Christmas. wala tuloy akong pamasko sa mga tito, tita ko..nakaka-miss talaga! kahapon pumunta kami ng target isa sa mga shops dito! tapos ang goal ko talaga bumili ng DVD na white chicks e wala tapos may nakita rin akong lilo and stitch na original movie e ang mahal $19.99 so $20 so iba na lang huwag muna yun! yung harry potter 3 muna yung prisoner of azkaban..bibilin ko na talaga nag-bibilang ako ng $20 tapos biglang sabi ni kuy siya daw mag-babayad! so parang ako o sure!! kuy pala kuya kapatid ko..una pa nga yung kukunin ko dalawa yung lilo and stitch at yung harry potter 3 nga kaso sabi niya mahal daw..tapos after awhile nag-ikot kami sabay pa namin nakita yung complete set ng harry potter 1, 2 and 3 hehe! $44.49 hello?? ang mahal! wala pang-tax! pero nagulat ako kinuha kaagad ni kuy sabi niya regalo na daw niya sa akin! sympre ako naman tuwang tuwa sa galak hehe tumatalon pa ako kasi dapat ipabibili ko yun sa tita ko na dadating sa 27! so ngayon iba na lang! baka yung stitch na lang. hindi ko pa napapanood kasi yung mga pinsan ko nanonood pa ng shrek at ng willy wonka and the chocolate factory! kahapon ito nangyari ah! Christmas eve! andito pala yung tito ko siya yung bumili ng TV namin..baet noh?? may naalala ako sa harry potter 3..si love ko!! miss ko na kasi siya ng todo e..

>yel, napaniginipan kita! hehe! basta! miss you so much!!

Break For Now

2004-12-17T17:10:00.000-08:00

NO MORE CLASSES......yahoooooo!!!!

WINTER BREAK HERE I COME!!!!!!

we had a party in our school awhile ago..as usual lots of food and

we watched movies..its like a free day..everyone in the school

said "happy holidays" its just funny..i don't know why..

i love Checkered & Love ko!!

be careful

2004-12-10T17:17:00.000-08:00

today is friday again! its so fast..then after 1 week we will have our winter break. im so happy! yesterday my cousins cam from philippines also. i have this cousin and her age is 13. so now i have someone to talk to and the last time we saw each other was when we were 7 years old in the enchanted kingdom. now we are all grown ups and teenagers. i can't study because she was talking to me all night. i didn't regret it because we have so much fun talking ang talking about stuffs.

also yesterday you know what happened to me? guess what? i got injured! when i was riding the bicycle in our school the stationary one then my foot slip on the pedals and then the pedals still continue on cycle and its very fast its too late to stop it. its really painful. the whole back of my legs was with blood i mean wound but it has also blood and you know that i hate blood even though its my blood..uck!!! a big scratch like the nails of the dog that scratched you. i loathe my teacher because she is blaming me for what happened..she said like this "i told you to press the stop button, your not listening." she didn't care if i get injured still she is blaming me. duh!! what if that happened to her and you can't walk. she is such a rude and mean person! never mind!!

>Checkered said to my friend while pointing on me "because she's punctual" (as you all know i always want to be the first one there in the room because i want to see him early. hehe!) he also smiled at me when he said "2nd placer is always the 1st loser" he remembered that in a movie! he is so cute! he is wearing red and he looks more handsome!!

>Love ko salamat ha?!?! alam mo na yun! napaka-baet mo talaga. kaya kita mahal na mahal e! may email ko sayo!

life is good with me and Checkered

2004-12-03T21:36:00.000-08:00

tgif! thank God its friday! hehe! 2 more weeks to go no more school i mean the christmas break..yahooooooo!!! im dying to wait for that time. i hate is when we come back we will have our final exam and i don't want that! then, they changed the mods to periods the difference is periods is longer than mods..mods we get 40 minutes only per subject now in periods 42 minutes they just added to 2 minutes.

i hate Green this time, do you know why? because he put the test tube rack in front of my face..i know he is like fooling around with me but that's not the time for that kind of stuff. i also am happy because he did something to me which is not good at least he notice me or something..then Checkered went to us we are doing our lab experiment..then he helped us do it..he asked me to do the mixing thing but i said no..and my partner also said no so he has no choice to do it..there! then he was looking at the test tube finding some DNA and he was like squatting because our table is low and when he was looking at it i am also looking at it im pretending that im looking at the test tube but im looking at him that is always my goal..i don't care for the DNA thing..duh!! all i care is on him!! hehe!!

happy birthday papang! & the deadly smile of Checkered

2004-12-02T19:08:00.000-08:00

papang is my grandfather. i think he turned 80. anyway, they celebrated it with so much fun, many people came even though there is a storm. that's how papang is loved by other people. about 80 people came in their house see its the same with his age. he is my mother's father. he is such a kind person. sometimes he tell us stories about my grandmother who died years back and about his daughters the attitudes and the way they live before. they have a store that is like a national bookstore with supermarket. i can't forget the time we went to Cebu and we visited my aunt his daughter my mom's sister, we stayed there. that night i woke up because im feeling hot so i turned the electric fan and the lights that time my grandfather was having a hard time breathing he has asthma. actually, i can't exactly recall the complete detail because im just 7 years old then. i think he was like in comma..do you know that word? i don't know the spelling. its like he was sleeping..then he didn't know what happened. i cried hard so hard because i don't know what's happening and everyone is in panic. my mom said im a big part of saving his father's life..something to do with me..all i know is im glad that he is still alive. thank you God for giving me a grandfather. the best!

in biology class Checkered is present. im so happy.!! if you see me the smile on my face can't remove all the rest of the day. hehe! so my teacher is discussing
about DNA and RNA.then he formulate some jokes regarding our topic RNA. he likes doing that even though its not funny at all. so he said the joke i just said to myself its corny and i smiled and then i looked at Checkered he is also smiling and on his expression on his face you will know that its corny its like what kind of joke is that. before that when i looked at him he is also looking at me with the charming smile that can't forget. after 3 seconds i got back my eyes out of him because he might notice that i have a huge huge crush on him and if he finds that out i will be dead really dead.

frozen to death

2004-12-01T17:13:00.000-08:00

its the first month of december and i kinda like it..i feel the christmas spirit because of the christmas trees on every house. christmas lights too, the people were wasting their money for electricity. they are not thinking how life is difficult nowadays! christmas is said if you are not with your friends and relatives right?? unless that if you don't have friends and relatives..you are alone throughout your whole life..that's boring!

what happens when strong wind and snow combine?

=====*** the answer here is my title. frozen to death your whole body will freeze. you can't move! your ears and fingers will be not attached to your body and it will be broken and its like crispy already. so if you are walking always check if you still have your 2 ears and your fingers are all complete beause maybe you will not notice that it will bw falling down and you lose it, you can't hear anymore. also you will quiver and die. isn't it frightening?

::::::Checkered is absent, has a meeting!

MaLiGaYaNg BaTi BeStEsTfrIeNd... (",)

2004-11-26T22:53:00.000-08:00

mahal na mahal kita alam mo naman yun diba? wait, parang walang connection sa birthday mo..ganito na lang, happy birthday! 16 na siya..hehe! tanda na natin. huwag mo isispin na ikaw lang ang tumatanda lahat ng tao ay tumatanda okay? ano ba yan mga sinasabi ko. wish ko lang sayo ang best sa buhay mo and i know you deserve that! i hope that im there with you celebrating with your joyful and fantastic party. sorry if i don't have a gift for you but i think this is one thing that i can give to you just this. a dedication to you. i hope you can appreciate this, this is all i can give you right now. sorry! i miss the memories that we had and if i have a chance to bring that back i will because i really miss that time, the laughters that we shared, the everlasting stories that you and i have, the things that we talked about anything under the sun, your family, our "gimiks" and the bonding. i will never forget those stuffs and will forever remain in my heart. mushy naman nito. hehe! just wait for me there and i will visit you remember that!! hope you will not forget me whatever happens also i hope that im not the kind of friend that you have that just passed and walked to your life and then will be gone. you know im not that kind of person im always here for you and ready to listen. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BESTESTFRIEND FOREVER AND THAT WILL NOT BE CHANGED. *(",)* i don't know if you consider me as one of your bestfriends but i don't think so. you are a person whom i can trust for everything that's why i allowed you to read my diary right? i wish that i can visit you but we are miles away apart. yet we are seperated by such distance but your emails bring me near from you as if we are chatting to each other. what else can i say? im just proud that i have a bestestfriend like you. hehe! i have something for you its not a poem i don't know what you call it. i just think it up. its like an epitome of you as my bestestfriend. hope you like it although it doesn't have enough meaning on it but it came from my heart. yahoooooooo!!!!

bestestfriend ko ito
walang tatalo sa kanya
wag niyo siya aawayin

alam niya ang buong buhay ko
alam niya ang lahat ng sekreto ko
mahalaga siya sa buhay ko

mahal ko siya
kahit anong mangyari andyan siya
malungkot ako, ganun din siya
totoong tao siya

kadamay ko siya sa lahat
siya ang unang takbuhan ko
sa kanya lang ako nakaka-pag-open

kilala niyo ba kung sino yung tinutukoy ko na SIYA???

si MURIEL BIANCA MANALO LARIN

Thanksgiving day & Birthday of meca

2004-11-25T19:56:00.000-08:00

i am thanking for the people like:

mom
dad
brother
bestestfriend
cat
meca
shalli
lee
love ko
close friend
chumsmate
buddy
green
checkered
aunts
uncles

im thankful for the stuffs like:

im here in the united states
i have a house to live on
i have good grades
i saw real snow falling down on my head
the nature
wind, sun, clouds, rain
my dad has a job
my life is fine
i have stitch toy
i have my own discman

BUT MOST OF ALL IM VERY THANKFUL TO GOD.

-------> to meca
happy birthday! hehe..so what's up? is your birthday fun? how did you celebrate it? anyway, sorry if i didn't have a gift for you. i hope you understand that i cannot give you something because im far away from you now. but still, im trying to connect with you or communicate but i don't know how. i just hope you have a great time spending your birthday. i wish you all the best. sorry for this short note. i don't know what else to say. thanks!

thanks

2004-11-22T20:56:00.000-08:00

have you ever tried not studying for a test? maybe it happens to us students...we just pray to God and help us. that is always my way..

i don't know what will happen to me tomorrow. i have 2 huge test and are long. i didn't study..because i just don't feel like it..nope, i studied but just a little. i hope i can answer..i also have lots of homework this day..but its fine with me.

no more Green in my life..i don't have a crush on him anymore. its with Checkered now.

why is it life is unfair??? lets think about that..why is it that Green was not talking to me and not doing something for me..? its like i just feel being happy then all of a sudden that happiness will be gone..but i want to thank God for all. that's it!

family time..

2004-11-21T19:05:00.000-08:00

i think this day will be my one of the days that i will never forget! maybe i can forget this but what happened to me is kinda like embarrassing and somewhat happy. im happy for the things that i bought. i experienced real shopping! hehe! because before in the philippines i don't shop we just shop in the window in other words window shopping. we are just looking at the things but we don't buy it because its expensive and we are being practical. i can but things here that i cannot but in the philippines. i can say that i can buy whatever i want if you have money like the discman that i have, combos cheddar cheese and stitch stuff toy.

here goes my detailed story..........

i attended mass and then after that my aunt said to me and my mom to join with her in teaching cathechism. my aunt teaches grade 3 students. i observed that no one is listening to her, everyone has their own conversation. hehe! even me if im in the students place i will also not listen to her because its so boring! i can't take that! next, my aunt drove us to the place where my dad works. [marshall fields] its like rustans there in the philippines. we will meet my dad around 12:00 noon at the foodcourt. we got early there so we decided to look around or window shop i saw a lot of chocolates i started craving..i love chocolates especially the white ones..yummy!! its expensive the price is $2.00 per piece and the piece is small its like a bite only. so we didn't buy we just went away from that part just to get rid of the feeling of craving. then i brought my mom to the disney store. if you just saw it wow its really amazing! full of stuff toys big big stuff toys and disney characters like the princess, incredibles, nemo,winnie the pooh and many more. i hope that will be my room. first thing that caught my attention were the stuff toys that cost $9.99 that is on sale and i think its cheap i mean its worth it. aside from its worthy buying it its in front of the door so that is the first few things that you will see. the colors were blue,purple and pink. those colors are awesome! the characters are eeyore, piglet, winnie the pooh, elephant i think its dumbo and stitch. when i hear stitch or if i saw something to do with stitch there is one person who is always on my mind my love ko! anyway, my mom and i went a little bit inside and i saw many stitch different expressions or faces of stitch and different attire. there is also small stitch.. i just wished that all the stuffs that is there and is stitch i have it. all i can think that time is can i buy stitch for love ko??!!!??!?..........there is a big BUT......i can't because how will i give it to her..yeah i know i can deliver it using the fedex or something but that is expensive! going back to stitch, also i saw a costume of stitch but its for kids only...haha! i know what you guys are thinking that i hope that there is much bigger than that size..you are wrong! im just excited that they have that kind of costume.

then i said to my mom "ma, bili mo ko nun stitch" then she said "cge, basta hindi lang baba yung price sa $10" that is her limit to me. i can't believe she said yes to me and buy me that is once in my lifetime..hehe! because before she will just say "wag ka ng bumili niyan hindi mo naman kailangan at hindi naman importante" i felt so happy i wnated to jump for happiness hehe..as if im a child that her mom bought her a toy..yes, that's true! my mom bought me a toy..the only difference is the age.. im 16 and the other kids were like 5 years old 3..so i have it already carrying it then we went outside the shop then is this girl pointing to the bag that im carrying the stitch that i bought! i was embarrassed because all of the people in the store are kids. they might think that im a childish person but the point is i love stuff toys and i think they didn't care they are focused on what toy will they choose and their parents will buy it for them. in the philippines i planned that i will buy love ko stitch stuff toy but i can't find any. i searched all the stores but no luck. so now i came here, here there are a lot of stitch! i want to give it to her as a present for birthday but i end up giving her a keychain of stitch. i know if love ko saw what i bought love ko will also like it. hehe!

so there..we went to foodcourt to meet my dad and then we met him i'll just shortcut this because this is already long..anyway, i ordered mc donalds and great steak. when i was about to put the tray on the table i accidentally slide the pepsi and it spilled all over the table. my mom was mad at me also my dad..because im not careful..as usual. then my dad went to the counter to replace the drink that i accidentally spilled. no questions asked they gave us another set of pepsi. then, the maintenance went to the table that i spilled on then he cleaned it then he has this friend a cleaner also he was talking about the table that i spilled on i was guilty of it because he was pointing to the table and i know its my fault.

then we are waiting for my brother to come because he will go with us also. so he came and we went to best buy they sell appliances,cd, dvds,computers, laptops, gameboy, callphones and a lot more. my brother came from his work in taking care of an elderly person which is a friend of my aunt and he is being paid a filipino also. so my brother has a money and his birthday will be on the 24th. i don't have a gift for him as always and he doesn't care. he bought a gameboy isn't that stupid? no not stupid he is not thinking..he doesn't save his money for something else. my mom didn't care whether he bought because that is his own money. also i bought a cd of jennifer lopez but i didn't look at it properly and i didn't know all the stuff in there is just a remix..so my brother was blaming me that i should have bought the original not the remix one. i didn't know that. next time i will buy another cd of n'sync my favorite song is there. [this i promise you..] i think that's all!

end of my story..

SCHOOL IS FUN AFTER ALL!!

2004-11-20T17:34:00.000-08:00

i stayed at home all day long. its boring! its better going to school than staying at home and watching television. in school you can learn hehe..what a reason!! to tell you the truth first, you can see your crush right? second, you can laugh because of your other classmates on what they are doing and even their jokes..to mention your friends you can meet them and talk and talk. i can say that school is fun!! i can't believe i said that! hehe..school can be fun with the people around you and the teacher [if the teacher is interesting] that i have a crush on..hehe! aside from the homeworks that they are giving us its fine with me i can still handle it. there is a big difference from st.paul in here..great thing that i studied in st.paul and im prepared for the stuffs and pressure that they are giving me because im used to it. that is one thing i learned in st.paul..like you wil do an essay that should be computerized the next day but the topic is only given the day itself..plus, here they don't give us lab reports, book reports..all kinds of reports..there is no group project or anyhting that is with group its always individual or sometimes partners that's all. teachers here are teaching the students to become lazy, you know why? they don't give many homeworks and if you can write in not complete sentences unlike there in st.paul everything you do should be in complete sentences and we are not taking down notes they always gives us papers with notes already. so if you loose the paper then you will have no more notes and you can't study.

love ko replied to me in friendster..hehe! im just glad.....thanks love ko!!

IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN

2004-11-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

to you i gave my deepest heart
your wish was my command;
and when you where in need of love
i offered you my hand.

my moments were completely yours,
i lived to make you gay;
because i thought our love would live
forever and a day.

your sweet embrace was paradise
your kiss beyond compare;
and though the things i pen seen trite
they're meant to show i care.

with you beside me it was like
a strange and magic dream;
no trial or trouble was too great
we had a winning team.

but then you took your love away
and filled my skies with rain;
there are no words to set apart
a broken heart's great pain.

and so i reminisce and write
regretful and alone;
i would have done quite differently
if i had only known.

=====) BEN BURROUGHS

do you think i am in love? because why am i posting some love poems. its just a feeling of wantness.

Green and Checkered was not in the bio class but they are present so my life is not so good today. =(

cheaters never win

2004-11-18T20:44:00.000-08:00

detention is the consequence for this. imagine that you are a teacher and you are checking the homeworks of your students. can you picture it in your mind? then, while you are checking you noticed that there are 2 persons that have the same rights and wrong and how the numbering is very similar. this is possible right? maybe they did not cheat. next, you checked another paper that is the same as the other one. same rights and wrongs. now, you really know that it is cheating. worse is another paper that you are checking is also the same no difference at all. there are 4 people who cheated. maybe one person do it the he passes it to the other person then to the other and so on. well, all i can say is the people who did this are guys. Guys are really..............................................
don't want to continue it. you don't know what will happen to your life if you do this kind of thing, you can be kicked out from school even in colleges. be careful people!

~~~~~ never try or attempt to cheat!

i took a test from mods 2-13 regarding the state of illinois particularly in the subject english. this day is a very stressful day for me. i didn't get ny report card today maybe tomorrow or maybe not because i do not know if they wil mail it..i reall have no idea but i know all my grades so i don't have any problem with that.

when i arrived from the bio room i put my head on the table because im so stressed and frazzled. then Green said to me "are you okay? do you need to go to the hospital?" i was like hello am i that so feeling not well. then i replied to him "no" again that's all i answered.

Checkered was collecting the homeworks and he was in front of me or should i say in front of my seat that's the same. i kept looking at him. waaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! really cute! hehe! so i handed him the other homeworks that came from my other classmates that is at the back. the way i handed it is organized and properly to him. at the end we should hand it in again the seatwork that our teacher gave us the real teacher. so i gave him my paper arranged or facing in front of him so he will not have a hard time in checking the papers. he is the one who checks all our homeworks, seatworks and tests. i saw him how he checks the paper and you know what he doesn't read it, he just see if you answered all the questions then he will give you a perfect score..got it? he is lazy in checking..anyway, that's really the job of a teacher right?

It's Tough to Be a Teenager

2004-11-18T19:56:00.000-08:00

It's tough to be a teenager, no one really knows
what the pressure is like in school, this is how it goes.

i wake up every morrning, and stare into this face
i wanna be good looking, but i feel like a disgrace.

my friends they seem to like me, if i follow through with
their dare,
but when i try to be myself, they never seem to care.

my mom, well she keeps saying, i gotta make the grade
while both parents love me, it slowly seems to fade.

it seems like everyone i know is trying to be so cool
and everytime i try, i end up just a fool.

maybe if i could make the team, i'll stand out in the crowd
if they could see how hard i try, i know they would be
proud.

sometimes i really get so low, i want to cash it in
my problems really aren't so bad, if i think of how life's
been.

sometimes i'm really lost, and wonder what to do
i wonder where to go, who can i talk to.

it's tough to be a teenager, sometimes life's not fair
i wish i had somewhere to go, and someone to CARE.

++++ by Tony Overman [chicken soup teenage soul II]

grades that are unlikeable

2004-11-17T19:03:00.000-08:00

m done with all my homeworks that's great right? i'll tell you what did i do when i arrived at home, i was resting all the time from 3:30-5:00. i didn't do my homeworks yet because its too early to do it that's always in my mind. that's why my mom was telling me how can i finished my tasks if im not doing it on time. so when its around 7 or 8 by that time im cramming but i can manage with it with the help of the other people and God. by the way, in the news last monday that the report cards will be mailed tomorrow. look at this, why is it that in the news there is the announcement of the distribution of cards? i was surprised by that because in the philippines they do not do that and it is not that important to be in the news. i was just curious. elementary students now got their report card but for us its tomorrow. i don't know if what im saying is true or if it is followed. maybe the cards will arrive on friday. i don't know. i know what are my grades are and as i said before i still have a B. that's stupid!! i should do more better especially on that subject where i got B. you can see your grade by online so you know what your status will be if your failing or not. i think that's good because you can observe on what you are doing well and what you need more to do some effort. i know you don't care about this i have nothing to say that's why even these things im telling it to you.

Checkered and i had an eye contact for about 3 or 4 times. his eyes is totally focused on me as if he was talking to me and im talking to him. i cannot stop myself not to ogle at him because he is always in front so i can't do anything about that. plus he is teaching us so where will you look???? he said to me "what about you rose? are you okay?" again i was not able to answer because he is my crush like Green. what i did is i just nod my head and said "yeah" that's what all i replied.

nothing again special happened to me to Green.

big help from my bro

2004-11-16T15:49:00.000-08:00

i don't know what to say right now my brain has holes so i can't think. i have to do my biology sheet paper about punnett square but i do not know how to do it. as i said im lazy to do it. my bro taught me how to do the punnett squares at least is useful for me. sometimes i think its pretty good that you have an older brother or sister because they can teach you unlike your parents they are so much far behind in our generation. got my point? the lessons that we have now is very different from them and it is more complicated. so i was asking my mom awhile ago about this lesson and she said "she can't remember it anymore" so i asked my bro about it he also forgot it but i said "i will refresh it to you" then he started reading my notes and he got it immediately. i can say he is a person who can explain stuffs to you but if you don't understand it he will be pissed off with you and he will not teach you anymore. that's one thing that i don't like with him he thinks in just one click i got it already hello...!! im a slow-learner and you have to repeat it over for me to absorb what you said.

Checkered said to me "rose, what will you put in here?" [he was writing in the blackboard about the punnett squares] when he said that i was stunned. but thank God i answered him correctly if not i will be embarrassed with Green and with him. i was so nervous about this..i don't like what he did.

nothing happened to me to Green. see that was im talking about before he is not talking to me and doing things that he was doing before like the chair and the give me five. i miss that already.

my dad bought me the cd of hilary duff the thing that i was telling before so now i have it. im sooooo happppyyyyy.......

ruined life

2004-11-15T17:54:00.000-08:00

this is fuck!!! i loathe this day!! really crap!!! i hope the second marking period did not end. but it ended last friday so i can't do anything about that. waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i was about to enter the bio room the thing that came to my face at the very first was Checkered who was standing in front of the door and he said "we are changing the sitting arrangement, rose you are beside the OHP" that time all i can think is about Green we will not be seatmates anymore..that cannot be!!!! also i want to shout foul words and swear but then i entered the room and i controlled my emotions and i saw Green sitting down calmly blowing his coffee he bought it in the cafeteria. he was sitting in a different place i was slowly calming down because he was not complaining at all on his seat! because for him he didn't care where is he seated all he knows is he should participate in the class. about me i care i mean i don't want to be far from him i want to be his seatmate..that's all i want!! now, i cannot ogle to Green and i can't talk to him and he will not get my chair anymore and he will not give me his give me a five routine..what will i do?? those things will be gone! this is ridiculuous!! im in the first row in the right and then he is in the second row at the very left. he is still asking questions and telling stories..we are far away from each other now.

> i found out this day that he has a sister, i don't know if its older than him or younger but i think the sister is older.

may gusto ka ba sa kanya?

2004-11-14T20:58:00.000-08:00

> i got this stuff from angela and i think this is applicable to me and to some other people i think! thanks! hehe!

*kapag nakikita mo siya. siya lang yung nakikita mo tapos yung iba either background or invisible sa iyo
*siya lang ang naririnig mo pag-nag-sasasalita at naka-mute ang paligid mo. siguro kahit may sumabog na bomba hindi mo parin maririnig
*kapag naka-ngiti siya sayo ay parang nanghihina ang tuhod mo at para kang matutunaw
*minememorize mo yung mga sinasabi niya sa iyo word per word para ma-kwento sa mga kaibigan mo
*babagalan mo ang lakad mo, kahit na nagmamadali ka para lang makasabay mo siya
*kasing haba na ng script ng telenovela ang ready made na sasabihin mo. pero makakalimutan ang lahat ng iyon at matutulala kapag andyan na siya
*nakikita mo siya kaagad kahit nasa malayo palang alam mo na kaagad na siya yun kahit likod palang niya ang nakikita mo
*pagpasok sa skul - dahil sa kanya para makita siya
*pagtotoothbrush - turn off ang badbreath kapag nagusap kayo
*pagligo - para mabango ka kapag nag-kalapit kayo
*pagbuhos ng pabango - para malayo pa lang amoy ka na niya
*pag aral ng mabuti - para may masagot ka at hindi nakakhiya sa kanya ang sagot o score mo
*pagtulog sa gabi - para mapanaginipan siya.
*isang oras kang nag-praktis sa harap ng salamin ng magandang ngiti at pagbati para alam mo na ang gagawin mo
*memorize mo na ang number niya both sa cellphone at sa bahay kahit hindi mo siya tinatawagan at least alam mo lang
*50 times mo ngang idinial ang number niya. pero binababa mo ang fone dahil nahihiya ka.
*mag-iisip ka ng tanong kahit na sobrang weird o obvious ng sagot ay itatanong mo parin kasi chance mo yun na maka-usap siya
*alam mo ang hobbies niya at pipilitin mong i-try ito kahit na maging bungee jumping,sky diving,scuba diving at bull fighting ito
*isang smile lang niya sa iyo ay parang nanghihina ang tuhod mo at hihimatayin ka
*parati siyang nasa panaginip mo kahit na ito'y tungkol sa weird na stuff tulad ng cartoons
*hindi siya ma-alis sa isip mo
*kahit saan ka tumingin iisipin mo na siya iyon
*lilingon ka sa paligid mo kapag narinig mong may sumigaw ng pangalan niya kahit na napakacommon at 1:10 ang ratio ng pangalan na ito sa highschool students
*ma-pipilitan kang bumili ng pagkain sa canteen dahil andun siya kahit na busog na busog ka na at baon mo na para bukas ang gagastusin mo
*parati kang andyan para sa kanya para anytime na may kailangan siya ay para kang super hero always to the rescue
*na-papatahimik ka bigla kapag bigla siyang andyan
*abot langit ang talon mo kapag kinausap ka niya
*abot tenga naman ang ngiti mo at parang naka-mighty bond pa dahil hindi ito mawala
*hindi ka makapag-concentrate
*pilit mong inaaalam ang family background niya
*lahat nang bagay ay mapapansin mo tungkol sa kanya mula sa kung ano ang hairstyle niya, kung may nunal ba siya sa mukha
*nakaubos ka na ng isang notebook kakaimbento ng mga lettering ng pangalan niya.
*siya ang naiisip mo bago matulog sa gabi at sa umaga kpag gumsing ka
*hindi ka mapa-kali kapag andyan siya at siguradong hindi ka makapag-relax at tense na tense ka kulang nalang sumabog ka
*kahit likod lang niya ang makita mo kuntento ka na
*bigla ka nalang na-papatigil at napapa-tahimik sa kinekwento mo sa kaibigan mo kapag dumaan siya o nakita mo siya
*bigla ka nalang titingin sa taas at sa paligid kapag na-obvious ka nang tumitingin sa kanya
*hahayaan mo siyang humiga sa lap mo at sa shoulder mo kahit na mangawit ka ayos lang basta comportable siya
*malungkot ka kapag absent siya at parang gusto mo na rin umabsent din (what's the use wala naman siya)
*bumibili ka ng quote book para naman may masend kang inspiring messages everyday
*tahimik ka lang kapag magkausap kayo kasi tina-try mong makinig sa lahat ng sasabihin niya
*nag-aalala ka kung bell na at wala pa siya
*ang notebook mo ay sobrang nipis dahil parati kang nagpupnit ng pages ng pangalan niya o kaya nama'y nagrerewrite ng notes dahil natatakpan na ng pangalan niya ang notes mo
*naninigas ang katawan mo kapag hinahawakan ka niya kahit na maging malakas na palo, suntok o sampal pa ito

ANO AGREE BA KAYO SA MGA YAN? ISA LANG IBIG SABIHIN NIYAN MAY GUSTO KA NGA SA KANYA.

my mom's pledge and the feeling of guiltiness

2004-11-13T17:50:00.000-08:00

she pledged that we will go to disneyland the place that i am dying to go to. but she said that it will take sometime to go there because we should be stable first before we go there. we can go there because i have an uncle who have a villa there where we can stay. to be able to tour around the park you should stay there at least a week. its really big. im so excited..yahoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! HERE WE COME.............

before i texted many people that is from the philippines my friends i used the cellphone here i didn't realize that its a big cost here and its expensive. sorry im a numskull. hehe! never mind..

don't know

2004-11-12T13:28:00.000-08:00

wala akong ginagawang homework or anything na magawa kaya naisip ko ito na lang update ng blog! nyek, wala lang. 14 days na lang birthday na ng bestestfriend ko nakaka-miss talaga.

nanonod kami ng film kanina sa bio about genes eklat tapos itong si Green tumayo tapos dumaan sa likod ko hindi ko akalain ako pala yung lalapitan niya..may questions kasi na dapat i-fill up about sa film tapos sabi niya sa akin "did they say these?" [tinuturo niya yung mga questions] sa totoo lang hindi ko siya maintindihan e! pero sabi ko "no" hindi pa naman talaga sinasabi e. bumalik na siya sa chair niya. after a while tumayo na naman siya nagulat na naman ako kasi akala ko yung teacher yung kakausapin niya hindi pala tapos may sinabi siya sa akin na mahaba. kaso hindi ko naman naintindihan tapos tinignan niya yung paper ko sabi niya fruit fly! parang ako okay...ayun! ang kulit e sympre hindi na naman ako naka-sagot sa tanong niya diba ikaw ba naman lapitan ka ng crush mo at kausapin ka hindi ka mag-papanic or something na kinakabahan..ma-shoshock ka na lang..hehe! iba talaga ang feeling kapag may nangyari sayo na maganda noh?? parang nakaka-gaan ng araw mo..minsan nga makikita mo na lang ako nag-smismile ng walang reason..baliw daw ba ako?? kasi may naalala akong scene na nangyari na maganda. kaya yun!

---------->to lee
natanggap ko na yung letter mo ngayon lang. pagdating na pagdating ko nakita ko may mail sa akin sayo nga galing hindi pa ako nag-bibihis binuksan ko na kaagad yung letter mo excited ako. natuwa ako ang haba kasi e. una pa nga page 2 yung nabasa ko mali pala..page 1 muna..anyway, sobrang thank you kasi at least may time ka para lang mag-mail..thanks for the time. may email ka ba? email na lang kita para masagot ko yung mga tanong mo at mga reaction ko sa mga sinabi mo. miss yah sooooooooooooo muchhh!!!!

AND THE WHOLE BARX!!! LOVE YOU ALL AND MISS YOU EVERYONE!!! TAKE CARE ALWAYS FOR ME!!!

bahala na

2004-11-11T17:13:00.000-08:00

may sipon ako ngayon so nahihirapan ako maka-hinga at barado ang ilong ko. wala rin ako pang-amoy pero may pang-lasa pa naman ako. may sinabi sa akin mom ako about dito e wala daw connection yung wala kang pang-lasa basta nakalimutan ko na yung sinabi niya. before ako pumasok uminom ako ng gamot naka-sulat pa dun sa box non-drowsy. so ininom ko na tapos pagdating sa bus oki pa naman ako hindi ako inaantok pero nung homeroom medyo lethargic na ako. after nun global studies may pinanood kami sabi ng teacher ko clip lang so it means maigsi lang hindi pala..kaasar! at baksak talaga yung mata ko feeling ko ang bigat bigat. naramdaman niyo na ba yun? naka-tulog nga ako e, pero parang idlip lang. kasi naka-patay pa yung ilaw kaantok talaga at aaminin ko wala ako naintindihan sa film. hehe! naka-ilang hikab ako e..at panay stretch. hehe! as in nakakatamad talaga. siguro may effect talaga yung gamot. ewan!

alam niyo nakalimutan ko na yung nangyari sa akin kanina about kay Green ang galing ko noh? hindi ko na maalala yung ginawa niya sa kin ibig ko sabihin yung scene. hehe! ano ba yan ang tanda ko na. pero hindi pwede dapat maalala ko..kailangan e! wala si Checkered ngayon kasi pumunta siya ng downtown may pre-present siya na about sa bio class yung pinaka-basic lang. paano ko nalaman yan? kasi kahapon sinasabi niya yan sa isa kong classmate e malapit ako so sympre nakikinig ako! hehe! so yun nga wala siya pati yung teacher ko talaga wala rin..so may subsitute kami dalawang teacher din na kilala ni Green teacher niya sa isang subject pero hindi ko alam anong subject. naalala ko na yung kay Green. so pumasok na ako ng room papunta na ako sa chair ko dumaan ako sa upuan ni Green lagi naman e kasi parehas kaming nasa likod so no choice at doon talaga ako dadaan at sinasadya ko talaga na dumaan dun baka may mangyari na maganda..hehe! ano ba yan..going back, eksaktong pagdaan ko sa place niya itong si Green bigla na lang nag-action na parang makikipag-away..yung parang naka-labas yung fist niya ready to fight parang ako sa isip ko bakit? tapos tinignan ko siya ng weird face..papaloin ko sana kaso sympre masasaktan wag na noh?? kung baga gaganti lang ako..kulit kasi ng mukha niya e. tapos tumuloy na ako sa chair ko tapos sabi niya nakatalikod ako sabi niya "how are you?" alam niyo ba na hindi ko siya nasagot, hindi ko alam anong isasagot ko. tapos yun nga hindi ako naka-sagot bwisit talaga..fuck!! after nun yung kamay na naman niya nilagay niya sa harap ko..yung give me five niya..routine niya na yun! ngayon nakita ko malinis ang kamay niya walang sulat or lines na ballpen. hehe! yun! next, umalis na siya kinausap niya ata yung teacher tapos umupo na siya sa place niya e may kausap ako filipino friend rin tapos may tinatanong nakalimutan ko na basta ang sagot ko sometimes..tapos ba naman ginaya ba naman ako sabi rin niya "sometimes" [parang maarte style] sira ulo talaga yun! pero benta siya ha!! cute talaga! wala na ako masabi..

kahit ano.

2004-11-10T19:08:00.000-08:00

sabi ng close friend ko mag-tagalog naman daw ako dito sa blog ko..so ayan sinunod ko na siya. nakaka-miss rin pala yung ganun noh? e kasi ba naman araw araw ang nakakausap mo mga amerikano. so yun, matuto ka talaga! pansin ko lang lapit na pala ng birthday ng mga taong importante sa aking buhay. sa 24 birthday ng kapatid ko tapos 25 birthday ni meca isa sa mga barx tapos 26 birthday naman ni bestestfriend after niyan according to my bestestfriend birthday ng bro niya sa 28 kung hindi ako nagkakamali or 29 na crush ko rin. hehe! so medyo madami ako gagawan ng parang dedication! kasi wala ako sa kaarawan nila kaya hanggang ganun na lang. wala ako mabibigay na regalo but alam ko naiintindihan nila naman yun e. hope so! oki hindi ko pwede sabihin ang plano ko dito kasi may gagawin ako na surprise para sa kanila. sabi ng bro ko ang gusto niya daw na gift computer..hehe! ano siya mayaman?? ang laki niya na joke noh?

wala yung teacher namin ngayon may pumalit sa kanya pero nandun si Checkered. so sympre yung mukha ko parang na-enlighten na naman. sa totoo lang kaya naman ni Checkered kami i-handle e hindi na kailangan ng isa pang teacher. wala naman ginawa yung pumalit nag-distribute lang siya ng papers at nakuha pa niyang magalit. weirdo!...duh!! what's the use? tapos napansin ko si Checkered habang nagsasalita siya parang akala mo may nag-oobserve sa kanya. getz? parang na-iilang siya tapos medyo may idad na yung teacher. at parang hindi maka-pali si Checkered. hehe! cute!! um, nag-pagupit pala siya. ewan ko dun parang twice a month nag-papagupit e, pero oki lang gwapo pa rin e! kanina mayroon akong classmate na girl feeling ko may crush rin siya kay Checkered e. nahahalata ko na yun dati pa. minsan selos ako kasi parang mas close sila or laging kinakausap nung classmate ko si Checkered pero oki lang. sabi nung classmate ko sa kanya "Checkered i like your haircut" tapos si Checkered parang hindi siya nagsalita. nag-smile lang siya. tapos mamayang unti ito na naman yung classmate ko sinulat niya sa board Checkered has a nice eyes. parang ako nag-aagree ako sa kanya kasi totoo naman. hehe! tapos one time nakasulat dun sa poster nung classmate ko sa likod Checkered is the best! tapos nakita nung teacher ko parang nag-selos tapos biglang sinulat nung classmate ko and the name of our teacher is best..halatang may favoritism e. hehe!

pagpasok ko sa classroom wala pa si Green maaga yun dumadating e. tapos kasunod ko lang pala. so pumasok na ako tapos nakita ko wala na naman akong chair so pumunta ako sa kabilang side kung saan may extra chair. tapos nag-pause ako dun sa may tabi ng chair niya habang tinutulak ko yung chair papunta sa place ko kasi ganito naka-harang yung OHP so hindi ko ma-move. tapos na-sense ko na papunta na si Green sa upuan niya e ako andun pa rin na-stuck na ako dun sa tabi ng chair niya. so nung na-sense ko na papunta na siya hindi ako kumilos tapos alam niyo ano ginawa niya??? binuhat niya na naman yung chair ko ang sweet diba? nyek..cge!! sorry babaw lang na tao..of course nag-thank you ako after nun nag-laro na naman siya ng game sa calculator. ayun, basta masaya na ako nun! sabi nga ng friend ko ang swerte ko daw kasi crush ko na nga tapos kinakausap pa ako, tinutulungan pa ako. well, ganyan lang talaga ang buhay. nung 8 ko lang nakita si Green na nag-submit ng homework niya, first time! bagong buhay na!! hehe!

*naisip ko kung naging katabi ko si Green siguro hindi ko siya magiging crush. kasi sympre magiging close kayo so hindi mo na makikita yung mga traits niya na kakaiba sa lahat ng tao..what did i say? hehe! stupid! ang baet talaga ni Lord sa akin. hehe!

anything under the sun

2004-11-09T17:33:00.000-08:00

wait..i'll do this later..i have to watch lizzie mcguire..bye! im back...and its 7:30 already, i just finished eating dinner. im having a trouble now in my throat. sore throat because of eating sweets like chocolates that i cannot refuse. hehe! so this is all my fault..i have to do something, but i don't know..whatever!

-Green broke up with his girlfriend last week, but awhile ago when he went outside the classroom a girl approached and hugged him. [don't know if that is his girlfriend] THIS IS BOGUS!!!!!!

Checkered is juan that is my newcode name for him. Checkered was not present he had a meeting but i saw him.

tomorrow my teacher in biology will be absent and for the next 3 days. yehey!! Checkered will be the one who will accompany us but i think its only for tomorrow. that's fun.

*sometimes im not aware that im already ogled to Checkered and you can see the big smile that is reached upto my ears.

none

2004-11-08T21:45:00.000-08:00

TONS of HOMEWORK came to my face this day! whew! these homeworks are long. i made 1 homework 1 hour or more so my time are consumed. anyhow, im watching HOAX now and they will give you 25 dollars and you should all spend it with a given days but don't give even a cent to your family..all yours!! that is selffishness and ridiculous! the big question is family or the money?? the girl wants to stop already and give up because she can't do it to her family.

about Green..as you know, there is a person that is in between us [Green and i] the person came back..and im not happy i can't see Green directly. sometimes the person in between us talks to Green then i'll look at the person..as if we 3 [Green, then the person and me] are having conversation. Green will look at me..hehe!

-his blood type is O
-went to Wisconsin with his dad

You dont care-[Green]

2004-11-07T19:14:00.000-08:00

Remember the time we talked in class,
Why would u? u don't care.
Or the time u smiled at me after school.
Hell no u wouldn't dare.
I hate u for not loving me,
And loving her instead.
Cause when i see you two together,
It makes me feel so dead.
I realize your too good for me,
But the truth is I'm too good for you. To you my love is completely a lie,
But to me it's completely true.
I know that your my friend,
That's all we will ever be.
But in my heart and in my dreams, Forever you're with me.

weekend with the cd player.

2004-11-07T18:09:00.000-08:00

my bro and i should supposedly watched the movie incredibles but we didn't have enough time. my bro then decided that instead of watching incredibles and wasting 6 dollars that much money he will just buy a cd player and a cd of alanis morisette. i don't know why my bro likes her maybe its because of the songs and the lyrics. wait, i noticed that my bro and i when it comes to songs we look at first at the lyrics then that's the time we will like the song..gets? never mind! anyhow, my mom said "lets go to best buy to look for some appliances, just look hehe!" then we went, then my bro saw this cd player with mp3 and a fm radio station and the price is 70 bucks! whatta heck!! why will he buy that much just for a crap player right? my bro can't decide what player that he will choose because there are plenty of choices to choose from! the range of the prices from 12 to 100 plus bucks! then i said to my bro "buy the 12 bucks its just 1 song that will be played then it will not work anymore. hehe" then suddenly, my bro said to me "if you want, you can buy first then me later on, i'll buy with the mp3." im so happy when he said that..im also quite disappointed first, i didn't like the color its blue but i like sky blue. for the first time i have a cd player that is really mine. before, i always borrow my bro's player and its hard to get it from him. i was also not able to buy the cd of hilary duff. but its fine..next time!

"if there is a problem, there is always a solution"

2004-11-06T17:16:00.000-08:00

Before my mom went here in United States her sisters and even her father didn't want her to go here..they were thinking of how will my mother's future and how will she live if there is no dialysis center. many people said that dialysis is very expensive so they kept that in mind, they didn't think in the positive side that God will lead us the way..now, my mom is here and she is okay our life is still going on and in fact we are happy as one family. the dialysis here is no cost at all even my mom's medication,,we don't pay!! the government pays that for the sick people. the one that we are paying is only the transportation, but its fine..unlike in the philippines the dialysisis P1500..sometimes its P2000 that's only the dialysis the medicines are not yet there..see! our life is i think much more better..and im happy also but in the sadness part i loathe that my friends, relatives and other people that i love are not here with me. but some other time i will visit my hometown.

You are my bestestfriend-[yel]

2004-11-06T14:26:00.000-08:00

You know you are my bestestfriend,
i could spend everyday with you
even if we're doing homework
riding bikes around town
or just sitting in your room
i don't think i could ever get bored
we always have things to do
or things to talk about
or people to prank call
but for some reason
we're always getting in trouble
but we think its funny
and we laugh about it for days
you know you are my bestestfriend
and you know it will always be that way
no matter where we live
or the school we go to
if i move away
or you leave to alternative school
ill never forget our good old days
just sitting around
laughing
play fighting
singing dumb songs
or having deep conversation
cause thats the way i always want it to be
you know you are my bestestfriend

anything...there is no specific title....

2004-11-05T17:18:00.000-08:00

i don't know what to say. my mind is totally blank. im here at the ESL resource center writing this because my teacher asked me to rewrite our work i mean continue and im done already. i loathe this because instead of im at the library now ogleing to Green im here stuck..my teacher left me! she is a nudnik!!! well, i can say that im a bad person..NO not really!! maybe quite! hehe! Green asked me "can i have a half piece of paper?" then i pointed to my other classmate because he has the whole piece of paper that i gave. so they half it! im happy because that's my paper..that is just my happiness! we watched simpsons episode and Green was playing with his gameboy..i think! its like a scientific calculator.. i think it is really a calculator but there are some features where you can play on it! he played all the time and even though he is not watching to the episode or movie he was still laughing..got it? he is a weirdo..and he is an intelligent and smart person! i promise to you that!

shortest post

2004-11-04T20:04:00.000-08:00

this will be my first shortest post that i can have..1 sentence only...

Green went to downtown fo his driver's license.

MY DESCRIPTION OF GREEN (Tomas) -new codename is green

2004-11-03T19:24:00.000-08:00

* his favorite color is green or blue

* he tells story to the whole class which is related to our topic sometimes he is misleading our teacher, and we go far..

* he asks a lot of questions

* he also can answer to some stuffs

* he does not write notes even though our teacher told him to write, he just get the paper but still he does not write

* he loves teasing people especially girls

* he is a sensitive person-i think

* his bag is full of papers and the papers are just stuck there, in short he is stubborn or a messy person but he is not the messiest person that i have known

----------------> saw him rode in the bus number 673
----------------> went to jewel osco and saw a handicapped person who works as a cashier
----------------> had a summer job before

"give me a five!!"

2004-11-02T22:44:00.000-08:00

election day here in US..the big and close fight in president is between bush and kerry..people here wants kerry than bush because they don't want anymore war..who wants war?? duh!! before in the philippines i want bush but now that im here i want to try kerry if he can do it or not..just to change the whole thing..within this day or night they will proclaim or declare who will be the next president..its fast!! but in the philippines its like a month that you are waiting for and you don't still know who is the president. here there is no cheating..anyhow, about Tomas..um, when i was about to enter the classroom Tomas blocked my way he is standing in the door so i can't enter..then he gave me way to pass then he turned his back facing in front of me..and his hand is like his begging for something to me..and i said.."what's that? money?" then he said "give me five!" i was observing his hand and his hands are kinda dirty not dirty there are some writings but not names of a person just a line..of course i gave him five and his hands are soft..yup, i felt that!! hehe! so the class starts then my teacher was taling about the stages of the cell cycle..my teacher was asking "what else can you remember in anaphase aside from it separates starts with A?" then i said "apart" then juan, my another teacher assistant that i have a crush on was pointing to me..then he said "you got it!" after that Tomas said "good job!" he was looking at me..this is it!! i didn't do the asking because he bought candies to my other classmate worth a dollar and 3 kitkats and 1 hersheys..if im him i will not waste my money to buy those then he ate it immediately, he finished it all up..its not even lasted for 30 minutes..wow!! that's it! i have to go to sleep now..thanks!!

WHAT A DAY!!

2004-11-01T18:55:00.000-08:00

whew! thank you Lord! nothing! i just want to thank the Lord for another wonderful day. all i want to do is have a leisure tome all the way down. first, im opting whether to study in biology or do this thing in my blog...but because i don't want to study i'll just do this..this is awesome!! right??? rather than studying this pests lessons! hehe!! Tomas is a Croatian,,i just knew it this day! i thought he is an american. my mind is not functioning well throughout the whole day! PROMISE! nevertheless, when it comes to Tomas my heart or i am physically and mentally awake. hehe! tomorrow, my plan is ask him if he has a gum or a candy.. i hope i can do it because when im not infront of him i can do it to anyone but with him im having a trouble to say those short words! i have to do this!! just to work out something!! HELP!!!!!

"Long before you were conceived by your parents, you were conceived in the mind if God"

2004-10-31T20:23:00.000-08:00

i will be a little bit religious today. im just wondering why is it there are some people who can't even think God, or do they know that God is present in our everyday lives? for me its like a routine to me before i go to sleep..i pray and thank Him for another day that He gave me. God iS such a very powerful savior and creator. Every person on this world has a purpose.

questions on my mind!

>why can't God create different attitudes of a person? why can't He just change the bad attitudes to good???

>do we have to deal with other people even though you can't stand them?

i think im a nincompoop here because of the questions..i know the answer here but i don't know..

ALL I KNOW IS THERE IS GOD WHO WATCH YOU ALL THE TIME!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!!

2004-10-30T10:35:00.000-07:00

game, tagalog na lang ako! Lee, patawarin mo ako kung hanggang bati na lang ako..alam mo naman na ang layo ko na sa inyo diba? basta sana maging maligaya ka! isa ka sa mga tao na nakilala kong napaka-baet! at miss na miss na rin kita..wala na tayong tawanan session..hehe! miss ko na rin yung pagiging pagka-kulit mo! iniisip ko minsan sana nakilala ko kayo dito sa US, feeling ko kasi mas maganda ang buhay dito kaysa diyan e. getz? at para hindi ko na kayo iniwan..lagi mo na lang tandaan andito lang ako kahit ano mangyari..at mahal na mahal kita!! ingatan mo ang barks!! SORRY kung maikli lang ito!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!!!

The fault of two persons!

2004-10-29T19:39:00.000-07:00

my grades are crap..truly crap..!!! i hate it! what's happening to me??!?! before, in my report card i got A in biology then now i got B and in math i got B before then now i got A..my mom said "you should learn how to balance" but i can't do it. im always like that if one subject i got high then the next semester i got high on that subject but there is another one that i got low..do you got it?? i can't explain it in further. one thing that popped on my mind just now about my biology having "B" its all because of i think two persons! TOMAS and JUAN! as you know they are both in my biology class and the other is a teacher so i can't concentrate on it because i kept looking i mean staring to them especially Tomas. hehe! oh by the way, before i forget, Tomas said to me "you' re smart, you got it!" [he was snapping when he said you got it! with an endearing and loving smile] then he said to Juan "this girl is smart" [pointing to me] then Juan said "what rose?" i didn't answer him, i just gave him a buggered face because Tomas was still looking to me and some of my classmates also looked at me! Tomas was amazed on my answer its just anapahse..our teacher asked us "what stage is when there is pulling apart?" then i answered "anaphase" [not that loud and my head was like bowed down] still Tomas heard me! the pattern here in my blog is not followed the english then tagalog. im used already writing in english. you know what..i have learned many things here in US especially words that you can use in your everyday life..some i heard them from my classmates, its grouse meaning very good, awesome meaning outstanding or cool, chill out meaning calm down and so many words that are just a few examples. awhile ago people from my school was dressed up to their halloween costumes..some are dumb looking and a drongo or a moron! i knew Tomas will not dress up like a stupid person who walks along the hall like a scary thing..he is a decent person and a behave person. our teacher in biology was wearing 1970's clothes and he was wearing a weird sunglasses [rayban] then Tomas said "i'll pay you 10 bucks on monday" he wants the sunglasses! hehe! he is awesome! then Juan was wearing a green and white checkered pajamas and white longsleeves and then his hair had a gel and fixed in a way that it is standing or spiky. he is totally cute! i entered the room with a shock because of what he had wore! the whole time i was laughing at him. actually, i like it better if he looked like that when he woke up, rather than the serious type one which is a real teacher..wearing longsleeves and his hair is not with a gel. this is long..i should stop this! arigato meaning thank you in japanese incase some people don't know what that means!

"WHAT'S UP?"

2004-10-28T18:28:00.000-07:00

YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS!!!! nope, i think you will..hehe! in my bio class awhile ago when i entered the classroom tomas was behind me and he put his two hands on my shoulders then said "what's up?"..wow! i was surprised that he did that to me. i didn't expect that he will do such a thing like that and being so chill or cool..i looked at his blue eyes very straight and i think we had an eye contact..hehe! isn't that good? then i answered him "im fine and doing good" that's all i said..as you know we are almost seatmates the difference is there is one person in between us. it has been 2 days that the one being sitted in between us is absent and this is my oppurtunity to look at him but not stare at him because i can't its hard and he will notice it. its easy when the one your looking at is in front so you can see what are his actions. tomas was about to go to the dean's office because he was chewing a gum and gleeting to one of our classmates..he is rude but he is cute and intelligent..of course i have to fight for him..hehe! dean's office is something to do with your behavior. so that's it! when i saw tomas's face i felt pity on him because he was like really sorry for what have he done and then right after our teacher said something he immediately stop it. see, that is a good boy!!! tomas is an example! anyhow, i have a big grammer test tomorrow but im not studying. i'll just pray to God and help me! um, about juan..he was looking at me and also we had an eye to eye contact. i looked at him then he looked at me also but i turned my head as if i didn't see him. i think that's all and i have to eat my supper which is popeye's one of my favorite restaurants especially their chickens. hehe!

KILLING SOMEONE that has a crush on my LOVE KO..

2004-10-27T09:43:00.000-07:00

before you hear my foul words out here, i will tell something first. today, we have no school because its teacher's institute day which i don't know what they are doing. just last week we didn't have classes and the also now. every month there is always no classes. its really fun and boring! its fun because you can wake up whatever time you want. its boring because i don't have anything to do here except for surfing the internet and watching television and listening to the cd of my beloved christian. i don't have anyone to talk to here because everyone is at work even though my uncle is here he doesn't talk to me he just stay at his basement and think what will he write on his incredible and amazing poems.

lets start now,, this is for real! i want to kill this f*****g person and kick her ass!!!! sorry for these words. actually im not sure if the person im talking about has a crush on my love ko. but i think so..i have some hints and predictions. i don't want to kill this person i just want to threat her! hehe! if someday i saw my love ko crying or feeling hurt i know what will i do to this person as i said kill her. well, im not that violent. hehe! i want to follow gandhi's philosophy which is satyagraha and this means non-violent resistance but i don't think i can do this to the person. so watch out!!! i don't want to mention her name because it can ruin her reputation, so i will just shut my mouth. this is just a warning to her! im the person who fights with other people just to protect my loved ones. i will do anything just for my love ko and she knows that!

mixed up stuffs

2004-10-25T18:13:00.000-07:00

wala nang pattern itong blog ko, english tapos tagalog. pangit na..sorry! next time na lang ulit. hindi ko kasi na-realize parehas na tagalog pala ang mag-kasunod. whatever! kaninang bio..si tomas ay tulog buong subject..SWEAR!!!!! pero kahit na ganun siya natutulog cute pa rin at nakakasagot pa siya..sumagot pa nga siya na 46 chromosomes. kagigising niya lang nun ah! e matalono naman talaga siya e. pinagsabihan na nga siya ni juan e yung teacher ka crush ko..hehe! tulog kasi ng tulog e! hehe! nakita ng bestestfriend ko yung pic ni tomas. sabi niya "mag-ka-iba talaga tayo ng taste sa guys"..ni minsan naman hindi kami nag-ka-sundo sa mga crush e..pero oki lang..kaya hindi kami nag-aaway sa isa't isa..kanya kanya kami! hehe..

ang kakaibang panaginip ko

2004-10-24T06:08:00.000-07:00

sana ay naaalala ko pa ang mga detalye ng aking panaginip. game, nasa bus daw kami ni juan parang may fieldtrip hindi ko alam basta ganun! tapos si juan daw may upuan na ako wala naka-tayo ako kasi parang puno na. e may space pa sa tabi niya..sabi niya "rose, sit here" so parang ako upo naman. tapos inakbayan daw niya ako sa may neck. grabe na ito. parang sabi niya ganito "hindi mo ba na-rerealize may gusto ako sayo?" tapos sabi ko "alam ko na yun dati pa" sabi niya "bakit wala kang reaksyon?" sabi ko "dahan dahan ko kasi iniisip" the whole time na nag-uusap kami yung head ko naka-patong sa shoulders niya. biglang sabi niya ng parang pa-whisper basta mahina lang.. sabi niya "paano na asawa at anak ko?" so sabi ko sa sarili ko may asawa at anak ka na? tapos sabi niya "bahala na, gagawa ako ng paraan" the end!

>ano masasabi niyo sa aking kakaibang panaginip??!!!?? ganda noh? slight nga lang lalo na dun sa may asawa thing..comment naman diyan! salamat!

*para sa mga taong nagbasa nito, hindi po ito gawa gawa lamang o umiiral na naman ang aking imahinasyon. ngunit, ito talaga ang nangyari sa panaginip ko!

just received the letter of my "love ko"

2004-10-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

im sooooooooooooooooooooo happy................really happy!!!!!!!!!!! as i opened the letter of my "love ko" i was so excited and the letter was so cool..creative thing..hehe!! thanks you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.............love ko! i really like and appreciate it. thanks for the time you spent in doing the letter even though you need to study for the upcoming examinations. thank you for the weaving thing and its really great..i also love the color..i remember my bestesfriend..she gave me a letter and the color of the paper that she was writing is pink and skyblue. then she said..that's me and you..isn't that sweet?? nothing..i miss her so much as my love ko also..love ko, i almost cry in the last part that you said. "now, that your gone, its not just used to be.." this is a lonely part. congrats for taking the risk being crisostomo ibarra and i know you did it well...i hope i saw that. you are the only one who wrote back to all the people i had send letters. thanks! take care of our mocha and yourself. i love you..

oscar, juan, chinito guy

2004-10-22T18:35:00.000-07:00

bumabalik yung pagka-crush ko kay oscar..i think so! hehe! kasi kanina..ESL (english second language) sabi nung teacher namin "who did the last presentation?" e ako yun..powerpoint! tapos sabi ng mga classmate ko ako nga daw.. tapos sabi nung teacher namin "in rose's presentation she has the pic of bank......................." tapos yung itsura ko e wala naman akong pic na nilagay e ni isang pic wala. tapos yung head ko parang nag-sasay no..getz? left to right..tapos naka-tingin si oscar. siya naman nag-nonod..up and down..oo daw..ibig niya sabihin maki-sang-ayon na ako sa teacher namin na may pic ako na nilagay..tapos ang tagal niya nag-nonod sa ski. tapos naka-smile pa..hindi ko makalimutan yung itsura niya e. tapos after ilang minutes tinanggal ko na yung tingin ko sa kanya. sympre nakakahiya na..tapos nagka-game kami tatawag kami sa mga isa sa mga classmate tapos tatanongin about something. tapos naka-tingin siya sa akin. nag-wawave siya ng hand..siya daw ang sasagot e yung ano namin bat girl..e duh dapat babae e..kaya hindi siya pwede. ayun.. ITO NA LANG ANG PROBLEMA KO! my CRUSH siya kay LORA..classmate namin din! e duh itong LORA na ito may boyfriend na..umasa pa si oscar. hehe! sa akin na alng diba..nyek! cge ang taas o mangarap. ang lakas talaga ng tama ko sa akin ng mga taong may dimples e ewan ko ba! tapos ang lalim pa..hindi naman siya gwapo..waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh EWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! may isa pa akong crush yun nga yung chinito na gwapo. hindi ko pa alm ang name niya pero ang locker niya alam ko.. A-192. hindi ko alam kung may makikita akong pic niya..um, si oscar pala freshman. tama ba ako..magkaka-crush ako sa isang freshman.hindi kasi applicable sa buhay ko yun e..si tomas sophomore e..parehas kami.. yung bago kong crush feelng ko senior siya or junior. i don't know. aalamin ko pa rin yan! kaninang bio class pagpasok ko..sabi no juan sa akin "good morning rose" so parang ako..kinilig kasi binati niya ako e..sympre sumagot ako.."good morning" hehe..gwapo talaga kahit kailan..ang baet noh?? yung mga classmate ko nga parang mas close sila kay juan kaysa dun sa totoong teacher na si mr.j..hehe!

juan

2004-10-21T13:10:00.000-07:00

waaaaahhhhhh............first thing in the morning, guess whom i saw? juan! he is totally cute and handsome as i always say. even though he is not smiling he is still hot! so my morning is a heaven again. i think he just came and he parked his car. in my biology class awhile ago juan said "he haven't seen barney" he is so cool because he mingles to every student. not mingle he is close or he talks to us students. in short, he has concern on us. oh never mind! Love ko's letter is still not with me. its a long time for waiting a mail. i hate it! tomorrow is friday..hehe! i love fridays because its almost weekends! i consider friday as a weekend. i knew juan's plate # of his car. ROC 87 and jeep is the type or the brand of his car. you can easily remember the plate # because its the last 3 letters of his last name. now, im sure its his car. hehe! thank you Lord..

whatever!

2004-10-20T18:15:00.000-07:00

EWAN KO BA KUNG NASAAN NA YUNG SULAT NG "LOVE KO". sabi niya pinadala niya na last week pa yun pero hanggang ngayon wala pa rin! matagal ba diyan ang mail? nakakainip kasi e! sana lang dumating na diba? nung monday sabi ko "gusto ko na mag-friday" start pa lang ng week e. pero ngayon thursday na..ang bilis lang ng arawhindi mo namamalayan yun nga friday na.. hindi ko pa rin natatapos basahin yung harry potter dami ko kasi ginagawa e. chapter 3 pa lang ata ako. nakakatamad kasi e! na-iinggit ako sa mga friends ko sa pilpinas kasi fair na nila. wala lang. saya nun! yun ang isang event na sobrang gusto ko kasi walang subjects at na-fefeel ko yung pagka-free ko! hehe! free sa pressure! miss ko na sobra ang st.paul. ibang iba kasi dito e! dito laging walang pasok kasi holiday at walang mga events na kasing dami sa st.paul. st.paul ang dami tapos ang saya pa!!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA!!!

2004-10-19T17:02:00.000-07:00

i totally forgot what the date today and its the 19th of october. i just realize it when the day ended. hehe! its the 23rd birthday of my crush who has a double platinum on his debut cd which is my favorite. all his songs are really nice and he is being compared to josh groban a american singer also. now, i can't see him anymore on television shows because we don't have a TFC here in U.S.A.. one time i saw christian in my uncle's house they have a TFC and that time the show was ASAP. he is still handsome! i want to do something special to him but i don't know what maybe this will be my gift to him. A BLOG that is dedicated to him! hehe!

'love ko"

2004-10-10T18:30:00.001-07:00

ngayon ako ay nakikinig sa cd ni christian ko. hehe! gwapo talaga.."kailan kaya kita makakayakap, kailan kaya kita makakahanap ng isang tulad mo na bihira na sa mundo?" from his song kailan kaya? hehe.. mayroon ako isang sobrang namimiss ko na aside from my bestestfriend and barks. si "love ko"..sobra! nag-tetext ako sa kanya hindi naman nag-rereply..so nakakalungkot yun hindi na nga kami nakaka-pagusap ganyan pa siya..ewan ko! parang wala kaming pinag-samahan.. =( baka kinalimutan niya na ako kasi nandito na ako sa malayo. pero kung alam niya lang masakit itong ginagawa niya sa akin. siguro nga may iba na talaga siya. kahit naman dati ganito na siya sa akin e pero iniintindi ko na lang siya kasi nga mahal ko nga siya diba? "kapag ang mata ay pinipikit ikaw ay nasa panaginip.." from the song of christian again ang tangi kong kasama. tama talaga yung sabi ng bestfriend niya sa akin, makakalimutan ko rin siya pero alam ko mahirap at matagal yun. pero oki lang! ang gusto ko lang naman kasi ay mag-text back siya sa akin kasi ako ang nagagastusan sa kakatxt sa kanya e. hindi ko alam kung wala siyang load or whatever. kahit na e! i hope someday she will have time and realize na namimiss niya ako or anything to do with me pero parang imposible yun e. ni minsan hindi niya ako inisip ako lagi ang nagpapakatanga sa kanya..ewan ko ba! kaya nga minsan iniisip ko bakit ba ako nag-kacrush sa kanya tapos lahat na ginawa ko na pero wala pa rin! stupid lang talaga ako. ang dami kong friends na nag-sasabi tigilan ko na daw siya pero ito pa rin ako si tanga tuloy pa rin sa kanya wala rin naman nangyayari. iisipin ko na lang ang buhay ko dito..hehe! bahala na..come what may..

plano ko kay tomas

2004-10-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

may plano nga ako sa kanya..hehe! kasi hindi ko alam paanong move ang gagawin ko para mapansin niya ako..hehe! flirt daw e. hindi naman. matino akong tao noh? so yun. so yung plan ko sa wednesday sa bio class namin ang gagawin ko kunyari wala akong pencil so manghihiram ako. una sa seatmate ko sa left tapos sa right tapos sana wala silang pencil tapos si Tomas ko na ang tatanongin ko sana meron siya or kung meron siya tapos ginagamit niya ibibigay niya sa akin, hehe! joke talaga ako. nanaginip ako! yun lang plano ko. sana makakuha ako ng lakas ng loob para matanong ko siya!

problema ko.

2004-10-09T21:15:00.000-07:00

i just finished crying in my room because my dad scold me again as usual! all because of i didn't hug my uncle and aunt when they were about to go home, yes i know he have said that 5 times but still im not doing it because im not used in hugging even my parents i don't hug them then what more to my relatives? got my point? so im feeling right now sad and i don't know what to do, they said i should change. bla bla...... help me!! im thinking what if they are the ones who are in my position what can they feel??? i hate this!!! sometimes i wish im dead you know why because i think im their problem and also i don't want anymore problems to come into my life like this situation. why is that i am always the one who gets all the "sermon"? why can't they get mad to my bro does this means im always wong on whatever im doing and my bro is always right?!?! i don't get the point! i hope all of my problems will be solved so that i will not cry anymore because its hard its like you are carrying a heavy feeling. right now, all i want is to talk to my bestestfriend and say this thing i know she is the only one who can help me and to make me cheer up again...but i can't talk to her! i hate this life! i hate it! i have no one to talk to, what am i going to do now?!?! i'll just pray! hehe! this is one thing that i learned to my "love ko" pray whatever your problem is..i miss all my friends because they are the only ones who makes me feel stonger and they are the ones who makes me feel better and laugh.. i hope they are here right now.. i can't even smile now. i also wish that my uncle and aunt had a child so that they will not like me..got it?!?! anyway, that's all. people please pray for me to get what my parents, my uncle and aunt trying to say and what must i do and to enlighten their minds and my mind also. merci to all!

NO MORE OSCAR!!!

2004-10-09T16:30:00.000-07:00

yup i don't have a crush on oscar anymore..BECAUSE I HAVE TOM ALREADY! hehe!

staring..

2004-10-08T13:45:00.000-07:00

1:10 pm
right now, im here in the library and staring to Tom. i don't know we have the same free time but everyday he goes to the library during my free time. one thing that i will tell you is he is a smart student and i love him. hehe! before i don't go here in the library because i don't have anything to do here but once i went here and i saw him doing some works and after that everyday im always going here that is all my reason just to make silay. i love his cheeks because its red like rosy cheeks. he also loves drawing. a while ago in my bio class he was drawing something and his head is tilted on my side and i was looking at him all i can think that time is can i steal a kiss from him on his cheeks? ..swear!!! he was looking at me right now and i bowed doen my head..hehe! he is so cute. he is a very talkative person and i can hear his voice to where i am sitting now.well, this is not so far. hey, he was leaving now and the bell will time any minute so should go also. bye!

another crush!

2004-10-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

well, yup i have a new crush and he is in my biology class. he is so handsome, in fact i have a picture of him. hehe! but, i don't want it to tell everybody where it is found. his name is Tom and he is almost my seatmate the difference is just one person in between us. that's it. so im so happy when bio class starts. so yesterday..you will not belive this because he said to our teacher that "i wanna sit with rose, can i sit with her?" i was so shock when i heard my name i thought he is joking but he serious to what he said. then our teacher said "no, just stay at your own place" i was disaapointed and sad that time because i want to sit with him also. and last tuesday or wednesday i can't remember, he said to me "hey rose where are you going are you leaving?" because that time i was trying to place my chair to the other side because i don't want the chair that i have. then he carried my chair to my place, he is a gentleman person. hehe! i love him.. and then we make a high five is that what you call? like making an appear to eah other like that. and a while ago..he saw me transferring again the chair and then he helped me again. i don't know what is he trying to PROVE to me..!!!!!! he said to me, "i got it rose". i can go crazy on what he is doing to me..and then here comes oscar, the yellow car. he keeps on looking at me during our english class and i was always caught looking at him also that's why. i think he knows already that i have a crush on him i hope not if ever he knows it i don't care. my another crush was having a meeting again..i hate that meeting stuff..the another crush that i was talking about was the assistant teacher in bio also.

BIOLOGY CLASS..

2004-10-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

mga tao sa ibabaw ng mundo tulungan niyo ako sapagkat ako ay nababaliw na sa aking mga crush!! nagyon na-bago kami ng sitting arrangement kasi tapos na ang 1st semester. hindi na ako sa aisle pero nasa likod pa rin ako at malayo na sa akin si mr.rocco kung saan siya ay laging nakatayo. =( bago niyan itong si mr.rocco sabi sa akin "rose, move one more" sabi niya sa kin yan kasi sa sitting arrangement nga ang gwapo talaga hehe! =) tapos meron ako isang classmate na gwapo din ito swear ko sa inyo may itsura na siya ngayon unlike yung si oscar na hindi gwapo or cute. pero crush ko pa rin si oscar. ang pangalan niya ay Tom gwapo, cute at matalino siya parang opposite sila ni oscar hehe! tapos kanina akala ko katabi ko siya hindi pala isang girl tapos siya natutuwa na nga sana siya e kaso hindi e..ako rin e natutuwa na e..hehe! so ngayon naka-upo siya dun sa dati kong pwesto sa likod tapos sa aisle na laging nandun si mr.rocco tapos e ung chair ko ayaw ko kasi kakaiba siya sa lahat ng upuan yung sa kanila blue akin brown basta ganun tumayo ako hilahila ko yung chair na brown sa kabilang side bali i-eexchange ko. sa kabilang side kung saan madaming blue chair na extra tapos sabi sakin ni Tom "where are you going? are you leaving?" sabi ko "No, I don't want that chair." tapos ang ginawa niya binuhat niya yung chair ko papunta sa place ko..hehe! saya!! ang gentleman..hehe! sympre nag-thank you ako tapos before pa nun bakipag-appear pa siya sa akin! hindi ko alam kung bakit basta may sinabi siya tapos nakipag-appear siya. sympre nakipag-appear din ako ang KJ ko naman at sayang yung opportunity hehe! grabe talag ang buhay ko ngayon! kaya kapag biology class parang laging heaven ang buhay ko e..ito sa totoo lang sa bio class dalawang tao lang ang matino si Tom at si mr.rocco yung iba please huwag na sila. una pa lang itong si Tom na-gwagwapohan na ako e kaso hindi ko siya inintindi kasi naka-contrate ako kay mr.rocco so ngayon dalawa na ang hirap ata bun hindi ko alam kung kanino ako titingin..hehe..bahala na! i love jot..j is for john then o is for oscar the t is tom hehe..ngayon ko lang na-realize ang dami palang gwapo sa mundo noh? kasi before parang naka-focused ako sa iisang crush lang e. si Tom pala ay soccer player kasama siya sa tem kung baga varsity siya. well, iba na talaga siya. may nahanap na rin ako na pic niya hehe at last. yung kay oscar hindi ko alam kung saan sulok ng mundo ako makakakuha ng pic niya pero si mr.rocco dapat may pic siya e..kasi duh teacher siya..hehe! basta makakahanap rin ako ng pic niya in time. kay oscar naman nakakainis kasi parang nahahalata niya na crush ko siya kasi nahuhuli niya ako nakatingin sa kanya..ang hirap diba? e kasalanan ko ba na ang upuan namin ay magkaharap. getz? sympre saan pa ba ako titngin kung hindi sa harap lang..diba? tapos ito may bad habit siya at ginagawa ko rin siya dati pero ngayon hindi na..parang whole day he is biting his nails..ayun. cge yan lang muna..til next updated post. mag-type pa kasi ako nung kay Gandhi na project namin.hehe..inuna ko pa tlaga e..thanks for reading!

strike thing..

2004-10-04T19:38:00.000-07:00

ngayon, sabi sa news may pasok na daw kami kasi na reach na ng teachers yung agreemenet nila so medyo nakakainis kasi instead na walang pasok may pasok pero oki lang. badtrip ako kasi hindi pumasok ang teacher na crush ko..bwisit! ewan ko ba bakit absent ng absent siya. pero oki lng..hindi hindi pala oki kasi wala akong silay sakanya at hindi masaya ang bio ko kapag wala siya pero totoo kasi ang boring nung teacher namin e..ewan bahala na..sana pumasko na siya bukas. hehe!

sinyales (sign)

2004-09-29T16:04:00.000-07:00

hehe! kaboringan ko tlga..well of course itong kwento ko syo as usual s crush ko. um, b4 dat, meron ako isang classmate na nung monday or nung tues ko lng siya naatrakan..(whatta word?)hehe..bsta attract..actually hndi..ngstart ito nung field3p hndi ko alam kng bkt.prang na-cutan lng ko. pro swear ko syo hndi sya cute or gwapo or whatever.just a simple man. pro mei dimples sya at alam yun hlos lht ng kakilala ko kaya mga crsh ko mei dimples kya ko sila ngiging crsh. tps nung monday siguro mga 5 or 6 times ko sya nkita na dpt 2 beses lng at mei kilig ako naramdaman hndi ko pa alam tlga kng crsh ko na sya or di pa so nguguluhan ako..tps tues gnun pa din..kinikilig ako. tps khpn ng gbi sbi ko kay Lord Lord please give me a sign kasi nguguluhan ako kng crsh ko b tlga itong tao na ito or wla lng ito..tps ang hningi kong sign yellow na car tps dpt mkita ko yun b4 ako mkarating ng skul and so kninang umaga..guess what??? hnatid ako ng tita ko dun sa waiting ng school bus tps nka-bow down ung ulo ko ksi nag-aayos ako ng hair tps bgla ko naalala ung sign na yellow car tps nung pag-angat ng ulo ko please sa hrap nmin mei nkita akong yellow na car swear!! so sbi ko sa srili ko crsh ko nga tlga sya. sobrang hndi ako mkapaniwala..mtagal ko na ito gnawgwa e ung pghingi ng sign and nangyayari nman..tps knina nman humingi ako ulit ng isa pang sign about nman aky mr.rocco sbi ko Lord kng pmusok na sya ngayon it means magkakaroon ako ng pic nya..hehe! kasi dba nung fri. ko pa sya hndi nkikita kasi mei meeting so ngayon pumasok na rin siya, di niya ako knausap nagyon.as usual nsa likod ko sya tps ito last period ko ESL bsta language yan. wherein classmate ko ung crsh ko na snasbi ko syo na nguguluhan ako ung yellow car..oki fine ang name nya ay oscar hndi ko alam last name nya..tps e nsa computer lab kmi tinuturuan kmi mgpowerpoint. tps e hndi ko alam paano mg-lagay ng background sa slide dpt mgeexplore ako kng paano gawin kso tnatmad ako at bka ano pa mangyari..so tnawag ko si ms.natzke teacher nmin sbi nya.."can anyone teach rose how to have a background?" tps as far as i know sya lng ung ng-raise ng hand yun ang alam ko..sympre ntuwa ako kasi baet nman nya kasi siya ung iba busy gumagawa at prang wlang paki. tps sbi ni ms.natzke "Bilal i know ur busy but can you help rose how to apply the background..?" tps itong si oscar crsh ko nga yun nga nag-raise sya ng hand tps sbi ni ms.natzke okay you teach rose tps hbang knikilig ako..kasi ang ga2win dpt nya lalapit sya sa akin with the wheel chair kso sbi ni ms.natzke stand up and don't say like this like that.tps lumapit na nga sya may dala siyang pencil tps sbi nya go to format ang pinangtuturo niya ung pencil before that nagbiro pa nga siya sbi nya press this and that ito nakakahiya kasi parang ako lng ung tumawa sa pagbibiro niya at least tumawa pa ako..hehe! tps sbi nya format then slide design click it..yun..tps sbi ko thank you..alam ko corny yun pro ewan ko ba sympre excitement na yun at mei kilig kasi tinuruan nya ako,,ayun lng..ewan ko ba anongmeron ngayon araw na ito mganda lht prang positive lht e..tps ngayon nag-aaral na ako sa bio test nmin sa cell bks e..dpt mg-aral ako kasi bio ito at pra kat mr.rocco..hehe! kasi tnitignan nya ung mga scores e at sya ang ngchecheck sympre nkakahiya nman kng puro bagsak dba? ung before kng test 31/35 e..bwisit..so i'll aim high..ayun lng..as you know hndi na sept.29 oct. na hehe..hni ko pa rin ito natpos isend syo kasi nung isang bses pnaalis na ako dito kasi ang daming gagamit hndi nman sa pinaalis naawa lng ako sknla kya sila nman so ngayon unti lng ung tao so pwde ako kht kelan at ang dami nman available na comp. e..okay, nung friday bnalik na ni mr.rocco ung mga test guess what..???35/35 ako..pano ba yan..iba tlga kpg mei inspiration hehe..tps nakasulat pa dun sa papel ko very nice sulat nya yun e..ang panget nga e sama e kasi ang daming nyang chinecheckan kya ganun tps yun..actually kya ako nka-perfect dun kasi multiple choice lng naman e..mali pla matching type ganun din un..hndi ewan!! pero hndi naman lht matching type meron din identification..o bsta yun..bsta masaya kpg nsa classsroom sya..ito pa sa ESL nman kng saan classmate ko si oscar the yellow car hehe..ng-test rin kami swear ko sa inyo mhirap sya ksi prang analysis about sa isang story tps pgbalik sa akin ni ms.natzke ung papel ko please perfect ulit sbi ko ano ba yan hndi ako mkapaniwla..prang joke e..ksi ung iba dun prang imbento ko lng hndi nman bsta hndi ko akalain na perfect 25/25..weird at yun ay dhl kay oscar..hehe..pro alam nyo sya 8 ang nkuha nya..alam ko babaksak sya e kasi prang wla sya maisulat dun sa papel e..nwy,ang sama kong tao..stop that! may sasabihin pa ba ako?? pupunta na mom and kptd ko dito sa thurs yehey!! hehe..mganda ba ung kwn2 ko? thanks!

my new crush.

2004-09-23T18:34:00.000-07:00

isn't it nice to have a title about crush? oh, never mind what i said..so here am i updating my blog cause my bestestfriend said to me that i should update it so now im doing it. how can i start this? yes, i have a new crush and this is worse he is my teacher in biology. well, he is not the real teacher he is just like an assistant teacher but still he is a teacher. anyway, this is because of the influence of my close friend. hehe! i will tell you something about this teacher..he is very cute i swear to all of the people reading this but i know each one of us has a different likes and dislikes. maybe for me he soooooooooooooooooo cute but not for you. first time that i saw him i was like stunned in front of him and he is talking to me. and guess what? everyday we have a biology im so happy because i can see him isn't it great and fun? but you know, today he is not there with us a while ago in biology class because he has a meeting with some other people so i was disappointed because i thought i will see him today but no. almost everyday he talks to me like phrases. for example is when he said if you are done you can throw them out. it is because he saw me holding pieces of paper and we did some experimenting that is why he said to me that. and one more thing last week when i entered the class he was in front of the door and he said to me "hi rose" that is the exact words that he said so i responded "hi" then he walked away i think he will go to restroom or somewhere.lastly..just yesterday he wrote "x" on my paper because he was explaining to me about the cell the "x" means that chloroplast and cell wall is not included in having an animal cell. see he wrote to my paper even though that is just an "x" im very happy about that. while he was explaining i can't concentrate and i can't understand what he is really trying to explain to me because he is looking to me all the time and he is sooooooooooooooooooo handsome..SWEAR!!! and while he is exlpaining im looking to his lips..hehe..its nice! i couldn't explain it but i think you know what im saying..if not try to figure it out. hehe! okay, now..im gonna reveal his name i will reveal it here because he will not see this or else im going to be dead if he saw this. his name is john rocco..i don't know what's with the name john because i have a crush on john prats also who is a commercial model and he is endorsing hawk bag next is john arigo he is a basketball player and his team is Alaska. lastly, my new crush which is john roccoad it is also john.anyway, i thinkthis all for now. until my next update. byers and take care always people and i love you..thanks for your time reading this.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY..

2004-09-19T16:10:00.000-07:00

buddy, alam ko may kasalanan ako sayo kasi hindi kita natawagan nun birthday mo im really sorry.no time kasi e..ang hirap mag-timing..alam mo na umaga sa inyo gabi dito..e kpg umaga nman sa inyo wla ka sa bahay kc sympre school kaya yun.basta next time i'll try my best to call you..i promise that to you..bye! tacke care! love yah..mis yah..buddy!

MALIGAYANG KAARAWAN PARA SA AKING CHUMSMATE..

2004-09-15T18:00:00.000-07:00

hapi bday chumsmate ana..musta ang bday? sana masaya at sana andyan ako pra i-celebrate ang iyong bday..nkakalungkot! mis na kta sobra! tumatanda ka na..nyek, as if ikaw lng ang tumatanda e..lahat tayo..hehe! parang wla ako masabi..basta nag-greet lang ako ng happy bday..and i don't want you to change. o yan lng..wla na ako msabi e..ingaters lagi!

I'M SO SORRY BESTESTFRIEND

2004-09-14T20:00:00.000-07:00

my ever dearest bestestfriend..im really sorry for the email back becuase you know i don't have the enough time to reply to your emails. are you mad? i hope not..remember i love you and "babawi ako sa lahat". sorry i can't translate it in english..i have nothing to say..that's all. take care everyone!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHALLI..

2004-09-02T19:00:00.000-07:00

ngayon ay sept.2 at kaarawan ngayon ng aking kaibigan hindi lang basta kaibigan friendship ko pa barx ko..shalli, itong post ngayon ay para lang sayo dahil espesyal na tao ka sa buhay ko..yes! ang lalim..hindi ako sanay ng purong tagalog..hehe! pero pilipina ako at alam ko dapat ang tagalog kahit nandito na ako sa teritoryo ng amerika. patawarin mo ako shall sapagkat wala akong regalo sayo kasi ako ay nasa malayo na at ako ay nalulungkot kasi mis na mis na kita at ang buong barx..ako ay magpapadala na lang ng sulat kaya hintayin mo ha? ang tanda na natin 16. hehe! wala na ako masabi..basta shall ingat ka lagi..tapos tandaan mo mahal na mahal kita at andito lang ako lagi kahit ako ay nasa malayo and i will never forget you..alright?

im here in chicago already..

2004-09-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

oki! lets see what can i say? as my title said above..yes im here in chicago and im happy and sad. you know its hard if you leave someone that you love. im having a hard time in expressing myself nowadays cause i can't speak english that well but im trying. i hope i can go back to the philippines where i was born so that i can see my friends and relatives again, i miss them so much even though i talk to them once in a while its different. til my next post..

sky blue_04

alive blog again..!!

up above in the sky..

"HINDI NA KITA MAHAL!"

random stuffs

kung ano na..

nice weather

whatever

SIYA NA..

spring break..i am here!

anything goes

hit by a ball

thank God for this day!

thank God for this day!

MM i love you!

bloody hell

weird dream & don't cut class!

YFC camp crush

update for the whole day

Why They Are Friends

hopelessness & desperation

valentines day special

no valentine date

golf here i come..

reasons

update

haunted...

unlikely snow

unknown feelings

happy birthday to moi

whatever it is

movie marathon

mysterious dream about Green

done with the finals

don't know

why am i happy? you'll find out!

regalo ni kuy sa akin

Break For Now

be careful

life is good with me and Checkered

happy birthday papang! & the deadly smile of Checkered

frozen to death

MaLiGaYaNg BaTi BeStEsTfrIeNd... *(",)*

Thanksgiving day & Birthday of meca

thanks

family time..

SCHOOL IS FUN AFTER ALL!!

IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN

cheaters never win

It's Tough to Be a Teenager

grades that are unlikeable

big help from my bro

ruined life

may gusto ka ba sa kanya?

my mom's pledge and the feeling of guiltiness

don't know

bahala na

kahit ano.

anything under the sun

none

You dont care-[Green]

weekend with the cd player.

"if there is a problem, there is always a solution"

You are my bestestfriend-[yel]

anything...there is no specific title....

shortest post

MY DESCRIPTION OF GREEN (Tomas) -new codename is green

"give me a five!!"

WHAT A DAY!!

"Long before you were conceived by your parents, you were conceived in the mind if God"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!!

The fault of two persons!

"WHAT'S UP?"

KILLING SOMEONE that has a crush on my LOVE KO..

mixed up stuffs

ang kakaibang panaginip ko

just received the letter of my "love ko"

oscar, juan, chinito guy

juan

whatever!

MaLiGaYaNg BaTi BeStEsTfrIeNd... (",)